Time

Time: 
I don't understand how time passes by so quickly and slowly at the exact same time. I guess it's one of those dual property phenomenons like how light can be a particle and a wave at the exact same time. It's beyond our human capabilities to understand how light works, just as it's probably beyond my ability to understand how time works.

My physics teacher at UCSD told me a story about light that I will never forget. He compared current scientific understanding of light to a story about a scientist that discovers a caveman. So there was this scientist that found this frozen caveman. He thawed him and started teaching him about the modern world. He taught him English and was about to fly him over to Switzerland to submit him for a Noble Prize. Just as they were heading to the airport, the scientist pointed to the taxi that arrived and said "this is a 'taxi'". The caveman nodded and said "taxi". Then when they were driving to the airport, the scientist pointed to a bird outside the window that was flying in the sky and said "that is a 'bird'". The caveman nodded and said "bird". Once they arrived at the airport, the caveman spotted an airplane that was on the runway about to take off. The caveman pointed at the airplane and said "taxi!". Just as the caveman registered that the airplane was a taxi, the plane took off the ground and ascended into the air. The caveman was confused and shouted "bird?".

This story demonstrates our elementary understanding of light as we crudely try to classify it as a particle or a wave, but it really has components of both, but because we are not that advance to understand completely understand light, we are confused when light can act as a particle and a wave, just like the caveman is confused that the airplane can act as both a taxi and a bird. And just as I am confused as to why time can pass by so quickly and so slow at the exact same time.

But then again, my subjective opinion on time might all just be psychological and completely different from my story about the caveman and light, but that was the best example I could think of to compare how I view time at the moment.

Life Line: 
I've always believed in reading palms and ever since I was a little girl, I've always believed that my life line is short. I estimated only living until 30yrs old +/- 5 years. But recently, I feel like my life line has grown LONGER. That's not possible because supposedly, your palm lines stop changing after you are 18. I can't explain it, but I really feel like my life line has grown longer! Normal people might be happy to find out that their life line has been extended, but I'm actually really upset about it. I've set up expectations my whole life to only live until I'm around 30. Now what am I going to do if I live past that age?? I don't have plans! My health is declining! I watched "A Simple Life"! I know what happens when you age! I don't want to end up in an old person home! I know I'm not going to age gracefully so this is not negotiable!

A midst all my upset thinking about the possibility of my life extending past 30 years old, I began to ponder how I would die. All these really horrifying thoughts about me drowning, getting hit by a car, thrown off a building, bullet to the head were popping up! It was really scary! I just don't want to feel any pain when it's my time to go! Well, I bet that's everyone's wish but not everyone gets that luxury. This is just a sad topic to think about all together...ok, I digress...

Back to being upset about my life line being extended! -_-