Back from SF

Weekend in SF:
Against all odds and all disbelief...I went to SF this weekend. I was so on the fence about it and being so flaky about it that no one really even believed me when I said I'd be going up to SF for sure.

I had a lot of hesitation for traveling up there, but I'm really glad I went. I had a great weekend catching up with friends and eating SO MUCH FOOD. Thanks for keeping me well fed...maybe a little too well fed, my SF friend. I meant to take so many pictures this time around, but ending up, I always forgot. I updated some photos on facebook....the few that I had.

I realized that I had stored a lot of good (and bad) memories of the bay area. Being back there was very much bitter-sweet. Thank goodness it was more sweet than bitter. This trip did, however, made me realize how much I miss a lot of people from the bay area. I say "a lot" very losely...when I say a lot, I really mean like a couple of people or a few at most. I'm very selective in who I chose to "miss". Haha. I think it would have been a lot worse if I went over to the Berkeley side, where MOST of my memories are from. I don't know how I would feel to go back there. Just imagining walking down those streets in my head gives me the willies. I think I just want to block Berkeley out of my head for a while. It resurfaces a whole bag of worms that I just don't want to dig up right now. Too soon, too soon.

The best surprise had to be when one of my SJ friends rushed back from LA to meet up with me. I was sooo excited! I had to really contain my excitement. I honestly think I tried too hard to contain it because I feel like I came off really nonchalantly. Oh man! I just realized I didn't even get a picture with my SJ friend! DARN IT! *smacks head on table*

I'm also really glad I got to see my friend's mom. I have this feeling I'm like a teacher's pet...except I'm a "Parent's pet". I am so keen/eager to get chummy chummy with my friend's parents. It makes me so happy when I'm loved among my friend's parents. It's like I almost care more that my friend's parents like me than my friends. That doesn't make any sense. I have to add that to the list of things that don't make sense about me.

I really need to start a food list of places I want to eat in SF when I go back next time. There were so many places I thought of AFTER I left that I wanted to go back and eat at. I did look through my Yelp reviews prior to my trip to remind me what I liked, but once I hit all the Berkeley restaurants that I used to eat at and saw that most of them were CLOSED, I was so devastated! Makes me so sad that most of the places that I gave 4 or 5 stars to aren't even opened anymore! I don't like change, so that was definitely a gloomy walk down memory lane!

Resuming Life in LA:
I'm having a hard time resuming my life back in LA. I feel like I'm maladjusted. But that doesn't make any sense because I've been in LA for a few months now and I was only in SF for a few days. It's taking me a little bit of time to get back into the groove of things. Not to mention, my studio is a mess right now since I just let all my luggage explode on the floor when I got back from SF.

It's not like I'm trying but my schedule has been rapidly filling up since I've been back. I've got dinner plans every night this week and even weekend plans for friends to come visit me too! And I thought I was just going to have a nice relaxing week back. More time to veg and just binge of Trader Joe's snacks after work everyday. Guess I don't have that luxury this week.

Becoming a Night Owl:
I've been sleeping WAY late lately, like around 11:30-12ish. There was even one night I slept at 1am! This might be normal for people my age, but it's definitely very abnormal for me! I am still trying to wake up all early at 6am! This is insane! I am not getting enough sleep! What is happening to me? I don't even know why I stay up so late. Last night I stayed up to finish eating 3 bags of candy and some macaroons! And I wonder why I feel like I'm uncontrollably gaining weight. Geez.

Reading:
Ok, brace yourself, because I was even surprised when I realized what I was saying or doing. I actually want to read more. *gasps* See, I can't believe I am even typing these words in my blog! I requested going to a book store when I was in SF, I was really considering buying a few books at the airport when I was waiting to board, I actually went to a book store when I was in SF, I even borrowed some books from my bookworm friend to being back to LA to read! Who am I?? How did I develop this new taste for books? Is this just a phase? Hmm...what a mystery. I must be going through some weird quarter life feminine hormonal changes. Next thing you know I'm going to be going to art show openings or sipping coffee at a local cafe, wearing berets and stuff (oh wait, I kinda already did start wearing beret-like hats! OMG!)

Birthdays on Skype:
This morning I was unfortunately greeted with Skype notification as soon as I turned on my computer:

"It's *****'s Birthday today!"

Excellent.....great to know. I didn't even know Skype did such things like remind you when people have birthdays. Isn't that what facebook is for? Isn't Skype just used to video chat and make cheap international phone calls? Why is it sending me such glaring reminders of things I don't want to remember?