Convo with BF:
BF: so I went to lunch with this old friend from Grad school today, he's interviewing at my company for a job
me: oh, nice
BF: he was all asking me "hey, how are you doing with your lady friend? Any future plans?" And I said "yes, probably some future plans by the end of this year". He brought his GF to this lunch and his GF said "what do you mean future plans? Like marriage?" and I said "shhhh...we don't say marriage, we label it 'future plans' so it doesn't freak us out" and both my friend and I just laughed while the GF was all confused. Haha.
me: wait....he called me "a lady friend"?
BF: I think you missed the point of the story here....
me: oh......*thinks* You have plans to marry me by this year??
BF: no.........that guys are afraid of the word "marriage"
me: OH.......yeah, I missed that lol
So my Ex chatted me again yesterday. He started asking way too many questions/details about when we broke up and why we broke up and etc etc. It got kinda uncomfortable. I told my BF and he said that I should stop talking to him. He sort of expressed feelings of jealous but not really. You know how he doesn't really express feelings in general, so I think that's probably going to be most feelings I get out of him.
Going home again this weekend. I'm suppose to drive my mom to this wedding, which I found out is at like 10oclock at night! That's crazy late! I told her that I probably won't even be awake! She agreed but is still making me go with her. She also said it's super low key and I don't need to dress up or anything. Maybe I'll just roll into the reception in my PJ's and sleep through the meal haha.
So did you find out the card mystery? Did you get the Pooh card?
Friday, March 28, 2014
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
SO IN LOVE
I can't believe you haven't gotten your card. I'm starting to think I wrote the wrong address. It's been a long time. I really like that card too, it's super nice. Darn, oh well. I guess it'll just be lost to the vast world of snail mail. I'm losing faith in USPS...*tsk tsk.
Of course my mom didn't go hiking. We parked far from the trail head, so that was quite a walk in itself, she would have probably called it quits after that walk to the trail head. Haha.
So my chat with my ex yesterday. Well, we were just updating each other on how we were doing. Nothing too interesting. Of course he was curious if I was dating someone. I was very vague about it but then again, so was he. He mentioned he wanted to be FB friends again and I said it would be ok. But I freaked out and removed my relationship status. I really don't think my BF would have noticed but I decided to fess up and tell him I removed it. Of course he never responds the way I expect him to. His response to that was "Yes! I'm a FREE MAN NOW!" which left me thinking making the face....
Anyways...so he then started to get a little more serious and he mentioned that it's a bit ridiculous that I'm doing all this just to cauddle my ex so he doesn't feel bad that I'm dating someone else now. It didn't feel ridiculous when I was doing it but after my BF pointed it out, it did sound really crazy. But I pointed how he didn't want to update that relationship status and now he's complaining about it! I think overall, he doesn't really care, so I'll just leave things the way they are right now.
My BF did something yesterday that made me like him more than ever. It's not what you are thinking. It's nothing romantic, it's nothing nice, it's just something as NERDY as you can possibly imagine. He's looking into buying a condo right now and he saw this one condo that he's interested in. So instead of being a normal person and just checking out the condo and deciding from there if the price is worth it, he made some graphs. Which made me make this face....
Hmmmm...why did you make a graph? What for? I was a little confused. So ending up he looked up a few other apartments around the area and plotted the asking price vs the selling price based on the floor the condo was on vs square footage. He also managed to separate the condos that came with parking vs. those that did not. I know..complicated graph, but he did it. And from the graph he was able to extrapolate that the condo he was looking at is asking way too much per square footage so essentially, they inflated the price. AMAZING guy right?
I think cupid just hit me with an arrow because I wasn't just SO impressed with how nerdy he was but I was SO in love with how nerdy he was. It's funny how sometimes he can be super romantic (well...relatively speaking for him) and I'm touched but I'm not falling in love with him. And then he shows me a graph that he makes to extrapolate how inflated the condo price was and I'm HEAD OVER HEELS OVER HIM. Wow.
Yup, I pretty much felt like that last night. I'm such a weirdo. Haha.
My friend found this pain chart that I think is pretty representative of how pain should be categorized. Some patient come in claiming 10/10 pain and I'm watching them sit down on the chair comfortably why they report this and I'm have a really hard time believing them that they are in 10/10 pain. I even tell them "10/10 would be like someone cutting off your arm" and their response is either "yeah, 10/10" or "oh..really? In that case, 9/10".
I think this guy summarizes my "Really?" face.
I've been really killing myself trying to finish off this large bag of sour patch kids candy because I found it it expired back in January. I'm getting so sick trying to eat large amounts of the candy all in one sitting. Since it's already expired for so many months, I should just take it easy and try to eat it in moderation.
Ok, sorry I posted more pictures than text this time around, but I really felt like using real photos to express my many facial expressions.
Let me know if you ever get my card!!
Monday, March 24, 2014
WHOA. CRAZY.
Do you think mousepads are useless? I feel like most of the time it's not useful, people lose them, use them for other things, or they become junk. Does anyone even have a mouse pad anymore? Maybe mouse pads were needed when there was actually a ball that rolls but now that all the mouses are lasers, I think they have become obsolete.
I also think that paper weights are useless. Some of them are really pretty but they don't serve an actual purpose. My BF told me that people were really bored before so pretty paperweights served as something interesting for people to look at during work. But since there's computers and internet now, I guess it's not really needed anymore.
I guess I wouldn't really mind working out as much if I didn't sweat so much when I'm working out. That and I get so tired and my breathing becomes more labored. If those things didn't happen then I wouldn't mind working out more. Oh, and you have to get changed into work out clothes because you don't want to sweat in regular clothes. But I guess if you didn't sweat then you wouldn't have to change out of your clothes to work out right? Well, I guess you still have to make sure you are comfortable.
In case you are wondering why I'm just rambling, I'm waiting for my patients to show up. And while I was waiting I thought of all this random stuff so I thought I'd just share it before I forget. By now you have prob figured out when I post my blog entries right? Well, I rarely do two posts in one day, so I'm just trying to keep things interesting for you. Surprise! Extra random rambling post! Yay!
So my BF decided that Bandit is too much of a guy's name, so we are going with Bandy as a nickname for the TY beanie baby Boo: Raccoon. I showed my brother and he thought Bandy was toooooo pink. Haha. I guess he's not a fan of pink. Too bad. Well, I'm not either but I can at least tolerate it.
Oh gosh, if my patient shows up then they are late. And nothing bugs me more than patients when they are late. Ugh. If you are going to be late, please have the curtesy to not show up. Please. For the provider's sake.
OMG!! Breaking news! You know my ex that I was dating last year? He just gchatted me!! WHOA. I guess he's in Texas now. WHOA. I'm still surprised he's talking to me. CRAZY. OMG, I'm still in shock he's talking to me right now. WHOA. WHOA. O_O
I also think that paper weights are useless. Some of them are really pretty but they don't serve an actual purpose. My BF told me that people were really bored before so pretty paperweights served as something interesting for people to look at during work. But since there's computers and internet now, I guess it's not really needed anymore.
I guess I wouldn't really mind working out as much if I didn't sweat so much when I'm working out. That and I get so tired and my breathing becomes more labored. If those things didn't happen then I wouldn't mind working out more. Oh, and you have to get changed into work out clothes because you don't want to sweat in regular clothes. But I guess if you didn't sweat then you wouldn't have to change out of your clothes to work out right? Well, I guess you still have to make sure you are comfortable.
In case you are wondering why I'm just rambling, I'm waiting for my patients to show up. And while I was waiting I thought of all this random stuff so I thought I'd just share it before I forget. By now you have prob figured out when I post my blog entries right? Well, I rarely do two posts in one day, so I'm just trying to keep things interesting for you. Surprise! Extra random rambling post! Yay!
So my BF decided that Bandit is too much of a guy's name, so we are going with Bandy as a nickname for the TY beanie baby Boo: Raccoon. I showed my brother and he thought Bandy was toooooo pink. Haha. I guess he's not a fan of pink. Too bad. Well, I'm not either but I can at least tolerate it.
Oh gosh, if my patient shows up then they are late. And nothing bugs me more than patients when they are late. Ugh. If you are going to be late, please have the curtesy to not show up. Please. For the provider's sake.
OMG!! Breaking news! You know my ex that I was dating last year? He just gchatted me!! WHOA. I guess he's in Texas now. WHOA. I'm still surprised he's talking to me. CRAZY. OMG, I'm still in shock he's talking to me right now. WHOA. WHOA. O_O
Weekend Wonder
I think part of the problem why I'm not a good story teller or a conversationalist is because I always forget things that have happened or sometimes even right in the middle of my story/sentence, I forget what I wanted to say or what I was saying and then my stories are all jumbled or inaccurate. I reallyd on't know what my problem is. I try to pay full attention and I still lose it. I try to make sure I'm actively coordinating my brain and my mouth to work together, but it doesn't work. Maybe I'm just not meant to be a good story teller or a good conversationalist. Some people have a knack for it and I'm just not one of those. Even for blogging, it's so hard for me to recall what even happened to me and try to recall what I even blogged about. When things happen to me, I always think, "OK, I have to remember this so I can blog about it later" and then when it comes time to sit down and jot everything down on my blog, it's blank. I'm just looking at the white screen with the blinking cursor trying to recall something, anything to blog about. It's really pathetic. Oh good, I think I'm starting to remember some things I did this weekend...ok, here goes.
So you know I went home this weekend. Friday we had this big feast. Don't ask me what we ate, I barely remember because it was this massive food fest. I was REALLY full. Like buffet full. Early Saturday morning during breakfast, my dad told me that we were going hiking that day. Which is SUPER surprising because we don't exercise together. That just doesn't happen. But then it occured to me it's probably my parents' desperate attempt to get my brother to work out. Which is a great gallant effort on their part because I know how tired they get from work and for them to put in more time and effort to exercise with us is amazing. So that's what we did, we went hiking. Of course my brother and my dad looked like they were going to the mall. I was the only one that was dressed in proper hiking gear with my camelback and everything. We only got halfway up, we had an appointment for an oil change so we had to leave, but I think my dad did pretty well, Oscar wasn't bad either. I think my dad either really enjoyed it or he was faking it because he said he's going to make this a standard saturday morning activity with us so we can all work out more. I don't mind because it gets me exercising and out of the house. We'll see if we really keep up with it.
I went to go visit my cutie pie baby cousin twice this weekend. He's getting so big now!! He can grip things and he can recognize people now. He usually cries if he realizes you are not his mother and you are holding him. So we've got to be strategic and try to hold him a way that he can't see our face so he won't cry. I know i've been saying that I've been really baby crazy, but this weekend has made me reconsider things. Crying babies are not that fun. And there might be a chance I'll give birth to a crying baby. That would drive me insane if the baby cried all the time. My BF told me he used to be a fussy baby and cried all the time, so if he takes after my BF, then it's NOT going to be a fun parenting experience!
So you know how the first thing I do it eat breakfast in the morning. My technician made some breakfast burritos and she shared one with me. It was so good! She makes everything from scratch! Including the tortillas! Impressive huh? I think you would have really liked it since you like potatoes in burritos and it's really fresh!
So on the drive back yesterday I was listening to NPR. Yes, I listen to that now instead of music. And there was this really interesting game show that was on. It's probably for nerds because it asks you things about obscure words, definitions, phrases, and literary geography. It requires a lot of thinking. I liked it though. I told my BF about it and he was really intruiged. He normally doesn't care about what I talk about but he seemed interested in this. Another indication that he's a nerd. Good thing I like nerds. haha.
Did you get your card yet??
So you know I went home this weekend. Friday we had this big feast. Don't ask me what we ate, I barely remember because it was this massive food fest. I was REALLY full. Like buffet full. Early Saturday morning during breakfast, my dad told me that we were going hiking that day. Which is SUPER surprising because we don't exercise together. That just doesn't happen. But then it occured to me it's probably my parents' desperate attempt to get my brother to work out. Which is a great gallant effort on their part because I know how tired they get from work and for them to put in more time and effort to exercise with us is amazing. So that's what we did, we went hiking. Of course my brother and my dad looked like they were going to the mall. I was the only one that was dressed in proper hiking gear with my camelback and everything. We only got halfway up, we had an appointment for an oil change so we had to leave, but I think my dad did pretty well, Oscar wasn't bad either. I think my dad either really enjoyed it or he was faking it because he said he's going to make this a standard saturday morning activity with us so we can all work out more. I don't mind because it gets me exercising and out of the house. We'll see if we really keep up with it.
I went to go visit my cutie pie baby cousin twice this weekend. He's getting so big now!! He can grip things and he can recognize people now. He usually cries if he realizes you are not his mother and you are holding him. So we've got to be strategic and try to hold him a way that he can't see our face so he won't cry. I know i've been saying that I've been really baby crazy, but this weekend has made me reconsider things. Crying babies are not that fun. And there might be a chance I'll give birth to a crying baby. That would drive me insane if the baby cried all the time. My BF told me he used to be a fussy baby and cried all the time, so if he takes after my BF, then it's NOT going to be a fun parenting experience!
So you know how the first thing I do it eat breakfast in the morning. My technician made some breakfast burritos and she shared one with me. It was so good! She makes everything from scratch! Including the tortillas! Impressive huh? I think you would have really liked it since you like potatoes in burritos and it's really fresh!
So on the drive back yesterday I was listening to NPR. Yes, I listen to that now instead of music. And there was this really interesting game show that was on. It's probably for nerds because it asks you things about obscure words, definitions, phrases, and literary geography. It requires a lot of thinking. I liked it though. I told my BF about it and he was really intruiged. He normally doesn't care about what I talk about but he seemed interested in this. Another indication that he's a nerd. Good thing I like nerds. haha.
Did you get your card yet??
Friday, March 21, 2014
Early Apartment Woes
Great start to the day. And I'm being sarcastic. I usually like to pack up all my things in the car during lunch time but today I was being really pro-active about it and started packing in the morning. Who knows if I'll even get a lunch break, it's been a zoo here lately. Anyways, so I packed up all my things, grabbed my car keys, locked my front door and dragged all my things to the car to load them in there. Do you see where things went wrong? I just grabbed my car keys, yes, that's right. Not my apartment keys, just car keys. OMG. So I stood there in front of my apartment door thinking all these different ways I could try to break into my apartment. None of them were actually viable options since I'm not agile, resourceful or a ninja. Good thing is that I was already dressed in work attire with work appropriate shoes, so I just made my way to work. I'll probably sneak back to the apartment during lunch so I can get a key to open my apartment. I'm shaking my head in shame right now. I've always been so careful...but I guess not careful enough today. I'm still really happy that at least I'm not in PJ's or I look like a mess, then I would be in really big trouble cause I wouldn't be able to go to work and I wouldn't be able to get into my apartment.
Last night I celebrated the New Year with my friend John. We went to Olive Garden. I ordered the Seafood Brodetto. It was good. I always get that. But this time, it tasted funny. There was this sandy, crunchy taste to it. It's a soup, that's not suppose to happen. Later on, when I was done with it, I realized that there was a small piece of ceramic in my soup. It must have broken off of another dish or serving utensil. That's why it was all "sandy" or "crunchy" because when the ceramic piece broke off, it must have left little reminents scattered throughout my soup. Gee, I sure hope that stuff is not toxic and is not going to scratch a hole through my intestines. Well, I'm still alive, so I guess that means it should be fine. I wanted to tell the waitress but at the same time, I didn't want to make a big deal out of it. So I just let it go.
I feel better today but I'm still a little down and frustrated. I was really unhappy yesterday but I'm better now. My dad called me yesterday. *smiles* He's so sweet. He asked me what I wanted to eat this weekend. He's always so thoughtful and nice. *smiles*
So remember when I complained about BOA yesterday pawning me off to another company? Which is an OUTRAGE. Like, seriously BOA? You aren't BIG enough to stay afloat you need to sell some of your branches? Geez. Well, anyway, I changed my address back to my parent's address for right now so therefore, hopefully, my accounts won't change because they don't belong here anymore. But that still means I won't have a bank while I'm here. No ATMs or anything. So I think the best thing to do is just close one of my BOA accounts and take that money to open another account with a different bank here. So that way, I will have some CASH if I ever need some. That's my best solution right now. Since I don't want to change all my direct deposit, automatic payment, etc etc info. That sounds like a can of worms I don't want to open right now.
I'm thirsty. Since I got locked out, I didn't get to bring any water with me, so I'm thirsty. Ugh :( This locking myself out of my apartment deal, feels like either a punishment for being such a downer yesterday or it's just another indication that I should leave this place. What do you think?
Sorry my terrible blog entry yesterday made you sad too :( I didn't mean to transfer all that bad energy to you. I'm sure the weekend will mend all my sorrows. Either that, or create more of them, since I'm going home and usually my mom stresses me out. Oh, my brother will be home too, and you know about our volatile relationship.
Yesterday when I talked to my BF he told me that he only likes me conditionally. Meaning, if I married him and didn't work and just coach potatoed around, he wouldn't like me. If I got fat, he wouldn't like me. If I started to gamble, if I spent a lot of money, if I eat more than I do now.....etc etc. So many rules. Are you suppose to date someone that likes you CONDITIONALLY? Isn't love supposed to be unconditional??
Last night I celebrated the New Year with my friend John. We went to Olive Garden. I ordered the Seafood Brodetto. It was good. I always get that. But this time, it tasted funny. There was this sandy, crunchy taste to it. It's a soup, that's not suppose to happen. Later on, when I was done with it, I realized that there was a small piece of ceramic in my soup. It must have broken off of another dish or serving utensil. That's why it was all "sandy" or "crunchy" because when the ceramic piece broke off, it must have left little reminents scattered throughout my soup. Gee, I sure hope that stuff is not toxic and is not going to scratch a hole through my intestines. Well, I'm still alive, so I guess that means it should be fine. I wanted to tell the waitress but at the same time, I didn't want to make a big deal out of it. So I just let it go.
I feel better today but I'm still a little down and frustrated. I was really unhappy yesterday but I'm better now. My dad called me yesterday. *smiles* He's so sweet. He asked me what I wanted to eat this weekend. He's always so thoughtful and nice. *smiles*
So remember when I complained about BOA yesterday pawning me off to another company? Which is an OUTRAGE. Like, seriously BOA? You aren't BIG enough to stay afloat you need to sell some of your branches? Geez. Well, anyway, I changed my address back to my parent's address for right now so therefore, hopefully, my accounts won't change because they don't belong here anymore. But that still means I won't have a bank while I'm here. No ATMs or anything. So I think the best thing to do is just close one of my BOA accounts and take that money to open another account with a different bank here. So that way, I will have some CASH if I ever need some. That's my best solution right now. Since I don't want to change all my direct deposit, automatic payment, etc etc info. That sounds like a can of worms I don't want to open right now.
I'm thirsty. Since I got locked out, I didn't get to bring any water with me, so I'm thirsty. Ugh :( This locking myself out of my apartment deal, feels like either a punishment for being such a downer yesterday or it's just another indication that I should leave this place. What do you think?
Sorry my terrible blog entry yesterday made you sad too :( I didn't mean to transfer all that bad energy to you. I'm sure the weekend will mend all my sorrows. Either that, or create more of them, since I'm going home and usually my mom stresses me out. Oh, my brother will be home too, and you know about our volatile relationship.
Yesterday when I talked to my BF he told me that he only likes me conditionally. Meaning, if I married him and didn't work and just coach potatoed around, he wouldn't like me. If I got fat, he wouldn't like me. If I started to gamble, if I spent a lot of money, if I eat more than I do now.....etc etc. So many rules. Are you suppose to date someone that likes you CONDITIONALLY? Isn't love supposed to be unconditional??
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Upsetting
Remember the bomb threat? We ended up seeing that patient yesterday. He was still very disgruntled and angry. I don't know why we are still seeing this patient that wants to kill us! This is crazy! I'm still very upset about how the whole situation was handled and now this. I feel bad for the doctor that ended up taking him.
I have this other patient that has been complaining to me FOREVER. It's partially his fault because he doesn't let me do any testing and he's always in a rush to get out. I've been him I think 2 or 3 times and both of those times he spent more time complaining then letting me do testing on him. Everytime I invite him back to do extensive testing he declines so he just complains and complains that I am not doing anything and I can't figure out what is wrong. It's so frustrating. I think I'm just going to give up on him. I don't know what else I can do for this guy. OMG.
I'm very upset because my bank was bought out by another banking company and now all my accounts have converted to the new bank company. That's not the worse, so this new bank company is only local to HERE, where I work, so when I go home to visit my parents, I don't have that banking company there. It's like one hurdle after another. So I've gotten over the whole bed bug and itchy patch crisis, bomb threats, crazy patients and now this! *Eye lid twitching
On top of all of this, I found out that we are not able to deny care to anyone. I understand and admire their policy because it's very nice to not deny anyone health care, but when it might compromise our safety, this rule doesn't seem as admirable anymore.
I think I'm just super irritated today. That's not going to be a good way to start the day.
My coworker got me a stressball but in a shape of a cupcake. I really like it, I keep squeezing it but it's not helping me de-stress at all. I don't know what's going on with me today, I'm just not in a good mood.
I can't even blog right now. Everything is just so upsetting right now.
I have this other patient that has been complaining to me FOREVER. It's partially his fault because he doesn't let me do any testing and he's always in a rush to get out. I've been him I think 2 or 3 times and both of those times he spent more time complaining then letting me do testing on him. Everytime I invite him back to do extensive testing he declines so he just complains and complains that I am not doing anything and I can't figure out what is wrong. It's so frustrating. I think I'm just going to give up on him. I don't know what else I can do for this guy. OMG.
I'm very upset because my bank was bought out by another banking company and now all my accounts have converted to the new bank company. That's not the worse, so this new bank company is only local to HERE, where I work, so when I go home to visit my parents, I don't have that banking company there. It's like one hurdle after another. So I've gotten over the whole bed bug and itchy patch crisis, bomb threats, crazy patients and now this! *Eye lid twitching
On top of all of this, I found out that we are not able to deny care to anyone. I understand and admire their policy because it's very nice to not deny anyone health care, but when it might compromise our safety, this rule doesn't seem as admirable anymore.
I think I'm just super irritated today. That's not going to be a good way to start the day.
My coworker got me a stressball but in a shape of a cupcake. I really like it, I keep squeezing it but it's not helping me de-stress at all. I don't know what's going on with me today, I'm just not in a good mood.
I can't even blog right now. Everything is just so upsetting right now.
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Halfway through the week!
I had a huge headache yesterday, was a little dizzy too, I think I was just really overwhelmed with patients and seeing so many of them. I was really burned out. I was so out of it by the end of the day. I was barely functioning. I went home and started mindlessly eating. I'm pretty sure I hate more calories than a typical dinner, but then John calls me and pulls me out for dinner. I was so full, I really should have said no but I went anyway and I ate AGAIN. TWO DINNERS. Wow, I really am on my way to obsesity. Now this morning we have a potluck breakfast and of course, knowing me, I woke up and ate breakfast...forgetting we have a potluck, so now I'm going to eat TWO breakfasts. Wow. I'm really something. I thought I really wouldn't even be able to have breakfast with everyone but I just checked my schedule and my 8:00am just happened to have cancelled so I have the 8-8:30 time slot to eat (again). Haha. Love how things work out sometimes.
I was so tired from work and foodcoma that I went to bed at 9pm. I'm pretty sure I did anyway. Not sure, last night was a huge blur. I had three missed calls this morning when I checked my phone. Yup, just as you guessed, all from my BF. I wonder if he thinks I'm dead. He also emailed me yesterday but I was so busy I didn't respond. I didn't do anything but work and eat yesterday. That was my day. Actually, most the time, that's predomintly what I do for every mon-fri. Haha. Work and eat. That's it.
I had a patient yesterday that was really offensive. Like I said, I was really busy so I worked straight through lunch. I didn't eat. So my first patient in the afternoon said to me "Wow, you must have had onions for lunch huh?" I was kinda taken aback. Was he implying that my breath stinks? I apologized right away and said "I'm sorry, does my breath stink?" And he responded "No, you're fine" and then I was even more confused...what is that suppose to mean when he asks me if I had onions for lunch?? So he then asks me again "So did you have onions for lunch??" and I was even more confused and at this point a little offended and frustrated. I responded with "actually, no, I didn't even eat I've been so busy, I worked straight through lunch. What you are smelling is probably ketoacidosis, which is my baby breaking up excess sugars/fats so I can remain alive since I haven't eaten in such a LONG time" and then he was silent. So I proceeded with the exam, only speaking when absolutely necessary since the patient finds my breath so appalling. He did other things that were super annoying during the rest of the exam too. Just his smug look and his attitude, it was really difficult to hide my irritation behind a smile. Then at the very end of the exam he started to demand for so much, claiming that he spoke to his friend and his friend got all this stuff and now he wants all this and that. When I said no he was arguing with me so much...over and over again. It was ridiculous. I sent him over to my technician, which he argued with over and over again. Then he requested to talk to me again, which he argued with again. When I said no again, he went back to my technician. This lasted a while. Keep in mind I was trying to finish my charts and see other patients at the same time. Ugh. Arguing with people is so draining. Sometimes I want to just give in but I can't let them win. Then he's going to tell his friends and they are going to come back and just argue with me until I'm tired and I'll end up giving everyone what they want just because they demand it. I've got to put my foot down and grow a spine! That's my goal this year...GROW A SPINE!
I think my brother is dating someone. If you check out his FB page, which I do from time to time just to make sure he's not doing anything fishy, he updated his profile picture and he's in it with this other girl. Hmm...either they are really good friends or something's going on. It's hard to imagine my brother is dating someone. I tried to FB stalk him a little bit but there's no other indication that they are together. I will just have to monitor this situation. If you find anything, let me know!
I'm excited to go home this weekend. I haven't been back for 3 weeks now. It's been a long time. I know I say I'm all excited and happy now but as soon as I go home, I know I'm going to get in a fight with someone or they are going to mention my BF (in a loving way) and I my eyelid is going to twitch again and I'm going to blow up on them. It happens every time. Even when I'm on the phone, it always happens. "Hi! How are you? How's your BF?" OMG! WHO CARES ABOUT MY BF?!?!? WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS ON MY BACK ABOUT GETTING MARRIED?!?!? STOP IT!! I'M GOING TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS FAMILY AND NEVER COME BACK!!!...But I always come back. And I always miss them, even though they do incredibly annoying things. And like I've mentioned before, I'm pretty sure it's my problem, not theirs. I shouldn't really have such a terrible adverse reaction the smallest mention of my BF. It's weird. I can't explain it but it just bothers me. I don't want them to talk about him, ask me about him or anything about him. Best thing to do would be for them to pretend he doesn't exist. That would be awesome. :)
It's gotten to a point I feel like Yelping is a chore. It's something I want to keep up with but just don't have motivation for it anymore. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I just yelped right away instead of waiting for like 20 restaurants to pile up before I did it. But I'm always so lazy to do it now anyway. I can see why people don't yelp (write reviews). It's tiring. I've written a few lately where I haven't really done my template. You know, where I split up the categories and talk about each one. But those seemed so generic and I didn't really much to share when I'm just free styling like that. I feel like I'm minimially contributing to the yelp community. Either that or I'm contributing subpar material. I guess that's how I've been doing my work lately. At subpar levels.
I'm sick of travelling. There, I said it. I'm sick and tired of travelling. I only go up to see my BF like every couple to few months. And I'm still sick and tired of it. There are non-stop flights now, which is great, but still, I don't want to travel. I have to pack and get ready and then make sure my stomach isn't going crazy. Let me remind you of that infamous road trip with my brother up to visit you. That was TERRIBLE. I think I seriously have some PTSD from it. Maybe that just ruined travelling for me. Ugh, I dont' know. My BF keeps chatting with me about coming up during May and I'm very unmotivated. We'll see how it works out.
I was so tired from work and foodcoma that I went to bed at 9pm. I'm pretty sure I did anyway. Not sure, last night was a huge blur. I had three missed calls this morning when I checked my phone. Yup, just as you guessed, all from my BF. I wonder if he thinks I'm dead. He also emailed me yesterday but I was so busy I didn't respond. I didn't do anything but work and eat yesterday. That was my day. Actually, most the time, that's predomintly what I do for every mon-fri. Haha. Work and eat. That's it.
I had a patient yesterday that was really offensive. Like I said, I was really busy so I worked straight through lunch. I didn't eat. So my first patient in the afternoon said to me "Wow, you must have had onions for lunch huh?" I was kinda taken aback. Was he implying that my breath stinks? I apologized right away and said "I'm sorry, does my breath stink?" And he responded "No, you're fine" and then I was even more confused...what is that suppose to mean when he asks me if I had onions for lunch?? So he then asks me again "So did you have onions for lunch??" and I was even more confused and at this point a little offended and frustrated. I responded with "actually, no, I didn't even eat I've been so busy, I worked straight through lunch. What you are smelling is probably ketoacidosis, which is my baby breaking up excess sugars/fats so I can remain alive since I haven't eaten in such a LONG time" and then he was silent. So I proceeded with the exam, only speaking when absolutely necessary since the patient finds my breath so appalling. He did other things that were super annoying during the rest of the exam too. Just his smug look and his attitude, it was really difficult to hide my irritation behind a smile. Then at the very end of the exam he started to demand for so much, claiming that he spoke to his friend and his friend got all this stuff and now he wants all this and that. When I said no he was arguing with me so much...over and over again. It was ridiculous. I sent him over to my technician, which he argued with over and over again. Then he requested to talk to me again, which he argued with again. When I said no again, he went back to my technician. This lasted a while. Keep in mind I was trying to finish my charts and see other patients at the same time. Ugh. Arguing with people is so draining. Sometimes I want to just give in but I can't let them win. Then he's going to tell his friends and they are going to come back and just argue with me until I'm tired and I'll end up giving everyone what they want just because they demand it. I've got to put my foot down and grow a spine! That's my goal this year...GROW A SPINE!
I think my brother is dating someone. If you check out his FB page, which I do from time to time just to make sure he's not doing anything fishy, he updated his profile picture and he's in it with this other girl. Hmm...either they are really good friends or something's going on. It's hard to imagine my brother is dating someone. I tried to FB stalk him a little bit but there's no other indication that they are together. I will just have to monitor this situation. If you find anything, let me know!
I'm excited to go home this weekend. I haven't been back for 3 weeks now. It's been a long time. I know I say I'm all excited and happy now but as soon as I go home, I know I'm going to get in a fight with someone or they are going to mention my BF (in a loving way) and I my eyelid is going to twitch again and I'm going to blow up on them. It happens every time. Even when I'm on the phone, it always happens. "Hi! How are you? How's your BF?" OMG! WHO CARES ABOUT MY BF?!?!? WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS ON MY BACK ABOUT GETTING MARRIED?!?!? STOP IT!! I'M GOING TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS FAMILY AND NEVER COME BACK!!!...But I always come back. And I always miss them, even though they do incredibly annoying things. And like I've mentioned before, I'm pretty sure it's my problem, not theirs. I shouldn't really have such a terrible adverse reaction the smallest mention of my BF. It's weird. I can't explain it but it just bothers me. I don't want them to talk about him, ask me about him or anything about him. Best thing to do would be for them to pretend he doesn't exist. That would be awesome. :)
It's gotten to a point I feel like Yelping is a chore. It's something I want to keep up with but just don't have motivation for it anymore. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I just yelped right away instead of waiting for like 20 restaurants to pile up before I did it. But I'm always so lazy to do it now anyway. I can see why people don't yelp (write reviews). It's tiring. I've written a few lately where I haven't really done my template. You know, where I split up the categories and talk about each one. But those seemed so generic and I didn't really much to share when I'm just free styling like that. I feel like I'm minimially contributing to the yelp community. Either that or I'm contributing subpar material. I guess that's how I've been doing my work lately. At subpar levels.
I'm sick of travelling. There, I said it. I'm sick and tired of travelling. I only go up to see my BF like every couple to few months. And I'm still sick and tired of it. There are non-stop flights now, which is great, but still, I don't want to travel. I have to pack and get ready and then make sure my stomach isn't going crazy. Let me remind you of that infamous road trip with my brother up to visit you. That was TERRIBLE. I think I seriously have some PTSD from it. Maybe that just ruined travelling for me. Ugh, I dont' know. My BF keeps chatting with me about coming up during May and I'm very unmotivated. We'll see how it works out.
Monday, March 17, 2014
Dreams: Wedding and a Daughter
I didn't ever think I'd ever say "I'm so glad I'm at work today" but I did say that today. Because I found out after work that it was 97 deg outside today. No wonder all my patients that came in today had sweaty foreheads. Makes so much more sense now. I'm glad I was in my nice A/C clinic. It's better than sweating your clothes off outside. As the temperature rises, I'm glad about ONE thing. WATERMELON. Yum. I don't know how many watermelons I'm going to have to eat when it's 120 deg outside. -_-
So I don't remember if I blogged about this (you'll probably get more and more of these as I am becoming more and more symptomatic for juvenile Alzheimer's) but the night before last, I had a dream that I was getting married and it was my wedding day. The groom? My BF, of course. And it was a glorious wedding. So carefree and fun. Not stressful at all. I wore a gorgeous dress and the day was so beautiful. Sunshine and rainbows. It was amazing.
Last night, I had a dream that I had a daughter. The father? You would think I'd say, "my BF, of course" but it was actually Mark Wahlberg. I know, random right? Well, actually, it wasn't super random. Right before I fell asleep last night, I was watching TV and he was on a commercial. It's about how he's going to get some award on TV or something like that. I always get Mark confused with this other actor. Wait, who was in Italian Job? Was that him? Oh, maybe I'm thinking of Matt Damon? I have no idea, I forgot who I confuse with who. But it was definitely Mark in my dream. She was about 2 years old and I was holding her in my arms the whole time. She looked just like "little mouse" or "lo shu jie". So cute and she had my haircut and my personality. She was constantly saying "mommy" and I responded with "yup, that's me" followed by a HUGE smile.
I did tell my BF about BOTH dreams and I'm surprised he didn't run away already. At least that means he's kind of committed to me right? Right? he he he...
There was a patient I had today that smelled so bad I almost passed out. Seriously, with the door closed, I felt like the room was getting fumigated, but with the patient's scent. I almost passed out. I had to keep breathing through my mouth but the more I tried to breath through my mouth, the more I felt like I was eating and ingesting the toxic air born molecules. The more I thought about how I was eating the molecules, the more I wanted to throw up to expel those nasty scent molecules back into the air and out of my internal airway. It was really hard to not die from the smell. I was trying my best to keep my composure and not make the patient feel bad. When I finally stepped out of the room, I took the biggest, deepest breath of fresh air I could take. Febreeze couldn't even neutralize the smell in the room. Oh gosh, I can just hope that it's aired out by tomorrow.
It's really sad to go through yelp and look through all the good restaurants that I've eaten at and find out that most of them are closed. All those good memories are gone. Poof, vanished. How sad. I found out another restaurant closed around the school I used to go to. I loved eating there with my friend for lunch. The food was so good. I know I really over emphasize food a lot of the times, but I do value the social experience too. Most of the time, I associate how good the food is with how good the company is. When I find fondly back about my dining experience, I recall the people I ate with and the things we talked about. It's a bonding experience. You know how we felt like after we came back from studying abroad and we were just so sad because we knew that those memories are gone? We can't ever go back to relive those memories because the same people we shared it with are not there anymore? That's how I feel when a good restaurant closes. I can't ever go back to eat that same food with the great people that I shared it with. It's gone. It's not there anymore. And just like when the restaurant closed down, I feel like all those good thoughts/feelings/memories have vanished with it. Makes me so sad. :( I guess I could try to refill those good memories with new ones but it almost always feels like it's not the same. You know how you never really realize how good something is or enjoy something until it's gone? Like how we didn't know how good our time studying abroad was or how I didn't know how good undergrad was or grad school was until I graduated? Or how much I would miss friends when they are gone? I am always one of those "miss it after it's gone" type of people. I don't really truly enjoy or savor moments when I'm actually living them, I just get sad afterwards when I realize it was really good/fun and then reminiscence those times. I'm always chasing or living in the past. I put the past on a pedestal and I continually miss the present. It's a flaw of mine, I know. I'm working on it....actually I'm not. But isn't acknowledging something the first step?
Wow, it's almost 10pm, I better go get ready for bed! I'd like to read a little before I fall asleep. Good night.
So I don't remember if I blogged about this (you'll probably get more and more of these as I am becoming more and more symptomatic for juvenile Alzheimer's) but the night before last, I had a dream that I was getting married and it was my wedding day. The groom? My BF, of course. And it was a glorious wedding. So carefree and fun. Not stressful at all. I wore a gorgeous dress and the day was so beautiful. Sunshine and rainbows. It was amazing.
Last night, I had a dream that I had a daughter. The father? You would think I'd say, "my BF, of course" but it was actually Mark Wahlberg. I know, random right? Well, actually, it wasn't super random. Right before I fell asleep last night, I was watching TV and he was on a commercial. It's about how he's going to get some award on TV or something like that. I always get Mark confused with this other actor. Wait, who was in Italian Job? Was that him? Oh, maybe I'm thinking of Matt Damon? I have no idea, I forgot who I confuse with who. But it was definitely Mark in my dream. She was about 2 years old and I was holding her in my arms the whole time. She looked just like "little mouse" or "lo shu jie". So cute and she had my haircut and my personality. She was constantly saying "mommy" and I responded with "yup, that's me" followed by a HUGE smile.
I did tell my BF about BOTH dreams and I'm surprised he didn't run away already. At least that means he's kind of committed to me right? Right? he he he...
There was a patient I had today that smelled so bad I almost passed out. Seriously, with the door closed, I felt like the room was getting fumigated, but with the patient's scent. I almost passed out. I had to keep breathing through my mouth but the more I tried to breath through my mouth, the more I felt like I was eating and ingesting the toxic air born molecules. The more I thought about how I was eating the molecules, the more I wanted to throw up to expel those nasty scent molecules back into the air and out of my internal airway. It was really hard to not die from the smell. I was trying my best to keep my composure and not make the patient feel bad. When I finally stepped out of the room, I took the biggest, deepest breath of fresh air I could take. Febreeze couldn't even neutralize the smell in the room. Oh gosh, I can just hope that it's aired out by tomorrow.
It's really sad to go through yelp and look through all the good restaurants that I've eaten at and find out that most of them are closed. All those good memories are gone. Poof, vanished. How sad. I found out another restaurant closed around the school I used to go to. I loved eating there with my friend for lunch. The food was so good. I know I really over emphasize food a lot of the times, but I do value the social experience too. Most of the time, I associate how good the food is with how good the company is. When I find fondly back about my dining experience, I recall the people I ate with and the things we talked about. It's a bonding experience. You know how we felt like after we came back from studying abroad and we were just so sad because we knew that those memories are gone? We can't ever go back to relive those memories because the same people we shared it with are not there anymore? That's how I feel when a good restaurant closes. I can't ever go back to eat that same food with the great people that I shared it with. It's gone. It's not there anymore. And just like when the restaurant closed down, I feel like all those good thoughts/feelings/memories have vanished with it. Makes me so sad. :( I guess I could try to refill those good memories with new ones but it almost always feels like it's not the same. You know how you never really realize how good something is or enjoy something until it's gone? Like how we didn't know how good our time studying abroad was or how I didn't know how good undergrad was or grad school was until I graduated? Or how much I would miss friends when they are gone? I am always one of those "miss it after it's gone" type of people. I don't really truly enjoy or savor moments when I'm actually living them, I just get sad afterwards when I realize it was really good/fun and then reminiscence those times. I'm always chasing or living in the past. I put the past on a pedestal and I continually miss the present. It's a flaw of mine, I know. I'm working on it....actually I'm not. But isn't acknowledging something the first step?
Wow, it's almost 10pm, I better go get ready for bed! I'd like to read a little before I fall asleep. Good night.
Sunday, March 16, 2014
So the couch potato-ing begins...
Did you find my new blog? I hope my email to you didn't "get lost" in your email folder. But most likely not, as you already addressed that problem earlier last week and has successfully received my emails in a timely fashion.
You know when you watch those TV shows or movies and the main character is usually blogging? And when they are blogging, they are usually narrating their own writing...so I've always wondered, when you read my blog do you hear my voice narrating what I'm writing? Or do you just read it as an update to my life? Just curious.
I told my BF last night that I still blog. This came up because he told me that he's interested in a career as a writer. Not a professional writer, like he's going to quit his job and become a writer...but something to do on the side. I told him that a blog would be a nice way to start and get some practice and then I casually mentioned that I still blog. Not as an interest but merely for you to read about my life and get updated on it. He said he's going to look for my blog but since I've taken the website off my facebook and I've changed my blog name...I doubt he'll find me. Muhahhahaha and I want to keep it that way. Muahahah. I don't know why I don't want him reading my blog...maybe because I know some of things that I say here might scare him. You know, things about how obsessed I am to get married and how I reiterate all those intimate conversations I have with him...things like that might upset him. LoL.
So let's go back to the crazy BOMB scare on Friday. So I was told that we are safe to go back to work on Monday and the proper protocols have been taken to ensure of safety, which I believed, up until the point I met up with some of my coworkers and they told me that those are just lies our manager has told our central office to down play the gravity our situation. No one checked the building to ensure that our workplace is safe and the guy that made the threats is at large, so I'm not sure if he's spending his weekend prepping a bomb and planting it in our clinic so he can take us down. I'm very disappointed and disheartened that they would treat us this way. It's almost like we are just expendable employees, so why not risk it? Why waste resources and time ensuring we are safe? Ugh. Makes me really angry when I think about this situation. But I'm going to just let this incident pass and blindly trust that we are going to safe and stay alive. If you don't hear from me for a while, check the news to make sure our clinic didn't explode and I didn't die in the process.
I'm not sure if I talked about this but John quit on Thursday last week. He went to work on that morning and the manager spread vicious lies about him and made two nurses very angry at him, he got fed up with it and he quit by the end of the day. I was shocked, of course, but I was more worried about his finances. He had just bought a new house here and he was getting a new security system installed, a new pool in the backyard and so much more, I didn't know how he was going to manage to make the payments if he quits his job. Luckily, the main office requested a telephone conference with him Friday and they ironed things out and plead that he return. He decided he will return Monday, under the circumstances that he won't have to deal with the manager. So we'll see how it goes on Monday, he can still quit, but I have my fingers crossed that he'll stay. Because this was so such crazy news for all of us, a couple of other doctors that worked at the clinic and I went over to his place Thursday night to sit and chat with him. We stayed until 10ish, which is CRAZY late for me. Then Friday rolled around and the whole bomb scare happened, so I left work and ending up spending more time with him. I actually stayed so late over at his house that he forced me to stay there because he thought it was too late/dangerous for me to drive home. So I did, I slept at his place.
Saturday came around and I just tried to accomplish some things on my "to do" list. Which was mainly just "do laundry" and "submit taxes". I've been meaning to do laundry for a while now. I wanted to wash anything that was fabric material that was in my apartment when it was fumigated that might have obsorbed some of the harmful chemicals. You know, it's to ensure that I won't die from making contact with that fabric. Anyways, so I did that. Check. And then for my taxes, really, all I had to do was sign onto turbotax and hit submit. Which I did. Check. I was done with my chores this weekend. Yay! That was easy. Normally I have a ton of things to do but this has been the 3rd weekend in a row I haven't gone home, so being here so many weekends has given me an opportunity to accomplish most of my to do list here. I'm so ready to go home next weekend. It's getting really really hot here. I'm melting and morphing more into a cough potato has the temperature rises. You know how that is, when it's so hot, you don't want to move, it's hard to prevent yourself from sweating by just sitting still. Who wants to go outside, in the beating sun? No one. So that's exactly what I did, I just napped for hours on Saturday. Haha.
Sunday. Today. I actually did do something active because my coworker invited me out to go walking along the Colorado River and then to breakfast. Let's be real, I just went for the breakfast. Haha. So I went to this restaurant that I really like because the food is always amazing! But I ordered the wrong thing today so I barely ate my food. I have this Mexican style scramble, I know, sounds good, but it was way too oily and had way too much tortilla. The home fries were also too oily. I only finished the bread that it came with. I left most of it untouched. After breakfast, since I was already out, I went to the mall. I've been trying to buy new clothes forever now. Much of it didn't fit or ending up being poor purchases. I'm actively looking for some nice tight workout capri's, like the ones that you have. Haven't had much luck. Thought I found something nice but ending up changing my mind. I was also almost going to get another pair of slacks for work, but also changed my mind about that. So, in summary, another uneventful attempt at a shopping spree. I swung by target on the way back and got some food, but otherwise, that was it.
It's so hot here, there isn't much I want to do. The only thing I've always enjoyed about summer....WATERMELON! John was nice enough to give me a personal sized watermelon on Saturday. I savored and enjoyed that beast today. Yum Yum YUM! What's better than a hot pre-summer day eating a cold watermelon? NOTHING. Good food always gets me so excited, not to mention, in a good mood. Ok, I'm going to try to take a nap and hopefully gracefully transition this nap into sleep. Tootles!
FYI, in case you are wondering about Sally's baby, there's picture posted on FB! The baby's a darling.
You know when you watch those TV shows or movies and the main character is usually blogging? And when they are blogging, they are usually narrating their own writing...so I've always wondered, when you read my blog do you hear my voice narrating what I'm writing? Or do you just read it as an update to my life? Just curious.
I told my BF last night that I still blog. This came up because he told me that he's interested in a career as a writer. Not a professional writer, like he's going to quit his job and become a writer...but something to do on the side. I told him that a blog would be a nice way to start and get some practice and then I casually mentioned that I still blog. Not as an interest but merely for you to read about my life and get updated on it. He said he's going to look for my blog but since I've taken the website off my facebook and I've changed my blog name...I doubt he'll find me. Muhahhahaha and I want to keep it that way. Muahahah. I don't know why I don't want him reading my blog...maybe because I know some of things that I say here might scare him. You know, things about how obsessed I am to get married and how I reiterate all those intimate conversations I have with him...things like that might upset him. LoL.
So let's go back to the crazy BOMB scare on Friday. So I was told that we are safe to go back to work on Monday and the proper protocols have been taken to ensure of safety, which I believed, up until the point I met up with some of my coworkers and they told me that those are just lies our manager has told our central office to down play the gravity our situation. No one checked the building to ensure that our workplace is safe and the guy that made the threats is at large, so I'm not sure if he's spending his weekend prepping a bomb and planting it in our clinic so he can take us down. I'm very disappointed and disheartened that they would treat us this way. It's almost like we are just expendable employees, so why not risk it? Why waste resources and time ensuring we are safe? Ugh. Makes me really angry when I think about this situation. But I'm going to just let this incident pass and blindly trust that we are going to safe and stay alive. If you don't hear from me for a while, check the news to make sure our clinic didn't explode and I didn't die in the process.
I'm not sure if I talked about this but John quit on Thursday last week. He went to work on that morning and the manager spread vicious lies about him and made two nurses very angry at him, he got fed up with it and he quit by the end of the day. I was shocked, of course, but I was more worried about his finances. He had just bought a new house here and he was getting a new security system installed, a new pool in the backyard and so much more, I didn't know how he was going to manage to make the payments if he quits his job. Luckily, the main office requested a telephone conference with him Friday and they ironed things out and plead that he return. He decided he will return Monday, under the circumstances that he won't have to deal with the manager. So we'll see how it goes on Monday, he can still quit, but I have my fingers crossed that he'll stay. Because this was so such crazy news for all of us, a couple of other doctors that worked at the clinic and I went over to his place Thursday night to sit and chat with him. We stayed until 10ish, which is CRAZY late for me. Then Friday rolled around and the whole bomb scare happened, so I left work and ending up spending more time with him. I actually stayed so late over at his house that he forced me to stay there because he thought it was too late/dangerous for me to drive home. So I did, I slept at his place.
Saturday came around and I just tried to accomplish some things on my "to do" list. Which was mainly just "do laundry" and "submit taxes". I've been meaning to do laundry for a while now. I wanted to wash anything that was fabric material that was in my apartment when it was fumigated that might have obsorbed some of the harmful chemicals. You know, it's to ensure that I won't die from making contact with that fabric. Anyways, so I did that. Check. And then for my taxes, really, all I had to do was sign onto turbotax and hit submit. Which I did. Check. I was done with my chores this weekend. Yay! That was easy. Normally I have a ton of things to do but this has been the 3rd weekend in a row I haven't gone home, so being here so many weekends has given me an opportunity to accomplish most of my to do list here. I'm so ready to go home next weekend. It's getting really really hot here. I'm melting and morphing more into a cough potato has the temperature rises. You know how that is, when it's so hot, you don't want to move, it's hard to prevent yourself from sweating by just sitting still. Who wants to go outside, in the beating sun? No one. So that's exactly what I did, I just napped for hours on Saturday. Haha.
Sunday. Today. I actually did do something active because my coworker invited me out to go walking along the Colorado River and then to breakfast. Let's be real, I just went for the breakfast. Haha. So I went to this restaurant that I really like because the food is always amazing! But I ordered the wrong thing today so I barely ate my food. I have this Mexican style scramble, I know, sounds good, but it was way too oily and had way too much tortilla. The home fries were also too oily. I only finished the bread that it came with. I left most of it untouched. After breakfast, since I was already out, I went to the mall. I've been trying to buy new clothes forever now. Much of it didn't fit or ending up being poor purchases. I'm actively looking for some nice tight workout capri's, like the ones that you have. Haven't had much luck. Thought I found something nice but ending up changing my mind. I was also almost going to get another pair of slacks for work, but also changed my mind about that. So, in summary, another uneventful attempt at a shopping spree. I swung by target on the way back and got some food, but otherwise, that was it.
It's so hot here, there isn't much I want to do. The only thing I've always enjoyed about summer....WATERMELON! John was nice enough to give me a personal sized watermelon on Saturday. I savored and enjoyed that beast today. Yum Yum YUM! What's better than a hot pre-summer day eating a cold watermelon? NOTHING. Good food always gets me so excited, not to mention, in a good mood. Ok, I'm going to try to take a nap and hopefully gracefully transition this nap into sleep. Tootles!
FYI, in case you are wondering about Sally's baby, there's picture posted on FB! The baby's a darling.
Friday, March 14, 2014
CRAZY
Wow, that blog you texted me seriously sounds like me. I had a double take too. I was thinking to myself, "OMG, is this me? No, I would know if I started another blog". It was THAT convincing that this other blogger could be me! I'm not suprised your friend thought it was me. Haha. I'm surprised she would share SO much on a live public blog. I'm honestly a little scared to share so much publically. That's why I changing my blog around so that way my identity is a little more concealed. Now...all I have to figure out is how to prevent my name from being displayed when I post blog entries. I have already deleted most things on here that can identify me as me. As soon as I do that, I'm going to write more liberally like that other girl. I think I would be really good friends with this other girl because we have so much in common. We would have so many stories to tell...or maybe most of our stories would be the same, so maybe we would just be reiterating each other's experiences. But anyhow, it's refreshing to know I'm not alone, other people go through the same things as I do! That's nice to know.
My boots finally came! I don't know if I mentioned I bought some boots and shorts from AE. The boots looked so promising but once I got them, they seem kind of small. I ordered a size 8, which is normally my shoe size, but when I put them on, I heard your voice inside my head "You should get half a size bigger for boots so you can wear thicker socks". Ugh!!! Where was this voice BEFORE I ordered these boots? It's ok though, I didn't really like the way it felt. It was so uncomfortable and the bottom was really HARD. There was NO cushion whatsoever. So I think I'm going to return them. I also got these shorts, just for the heck of it. Yes...I have decided to forget that I've gained weight when I ordered these shorts because when I tried to pull them on, I think there was a period of 30 secs I lost circulation in my thigh/hip area before I could rip them off. I needed a bigger size. -_- So basically my online shopping spree was a bust. I don't know why I feel like I can online shop successfully. I've never been able to do it before. I always order all these things and then end up returning them. Especially from AE! That's always the most unsuccessful online shopping I've done. I should learn from my mistakes, but I guess I'm not very good at learning from history....ie. my current BF.
So something really BIG happened yesterday. It was REALLY big. I got off work and didn't get home until 10pm. So you know my good doctor friend, John? Well, he got so fed up with the coruption and management here at the clinic, he just quit yesterday. He finished up his work day and packed up all his stuff and left. It's CRAZY! And so sudden. I can't believe it. There's been a lot of shady things happening around here and management has been very bad, so I think he just had enough of it. He's a man of principle and it's hard for him to work in this type of environment. I just worry about him now since he just bought a new house, he wasn't released from his lease at this current apartment, so he's paying rent for this apartment and now morgage on his new home. And I'm sure there is a lot of extra expenses with a purchase of a new home, like new furniture, new appliances, he just installed a sercuity system in his new house and he's getting a pool installed...it all costs money. I don't know what he's going to do now that he doesn't have a job and has all these payments. But he's an adult, and he's capable of making his own choices, so if he's going to choose to make these choices, I support him and will only pray that he will find a way. So that's what I've been doing all of yesterday. After work, I helped him pack and drive back to his place. And then stayed there and talked to him. Two other co-workers were at his place too and the four of us just kept him company. He seemed to be a little better but he was still very down. We asked him what his next plan is but he just said he didn't have one and that he's not even thinking about it right now because he's still in shock. I'll check up on him after work again today but this is all so shocking and terrible.
OMG, this is INSANE, we have a bomb threat today, I'm outta here!
My boots finally came! I don't know if I mentioned I bought some boots and shorts from AE. The boots looked so promising but once I got them, they seem kind of small. I ordered a size 8, which is normally my shoe size, but when I put them on, I heard your voice inside my head "You should get half a size bigger for boots so you can wear thicker socks". Ugh!!! Where was this voice BEFORE I ordered these boots? It's ok though, I didn't really like the way it felt. It was so uncomfortable and the bottom was really HARD. There was NO cushion whatsoever. So I think I'm going to return them. I also got these shorts, just for the heck of it. Yes...I have decided to forget that I've gained weight when I ordered these shorts because when I tried to pull them on, I think there was a period of 30 secs I lost circulation in my thigh/hip area before I could rip them off. I needed a bigger size. -_- So basically my online shopping spree was a bust. I don't know why I feel like I can online shop successfully. I've never been able to do it before. I always order all these things and then end up returning them. Especially from AE! That's always the most unsuccessful online shopping I've done. I should learn from my mistakes, but I guess I'm not very good at learning from history....ie. my current BF.
So something really BIG happened yesterday. It was REALLY big. I got off work and didn't get home until 10pm. So you know my good doctor friend, John? Well, he got so fed up with the coruption and management here at the clinic, he just quit yesterday. He finished up his work day and packed up all his stuff and left. It's CRAZY! And so sudden. I can't believe it. There's been a lot of shady things happening around here and management has been very bad, so I think he just had enough of it. He's a man of principle and it's hard for him to work in this type of environment. I just worry about him now since he just bought a new house, he wasn't released from his lease at this current apartment, so he's paying rent for this apartment and now morgage on his new home. And I'm sure there is a lot of extra expenses with a purchase of a new home, like new furniture, new appliances, he just installed a sercuity system in his new house and he's getting a pool installed...it all costs money. I don't know what he's going to do now that he doesn't have a job and has all these payments. But he's an adult, and he's capable of making his own choices, so if he's going to choose to make these choices, I support him and will only pray that he will find a way. So that's what I've been doing all of yesterday. After work, I helped him pack and drive back to his place. And then stayed there and talked to him. Two other co-workers were at his place too and the four of us just kept him company. He seemed to be a little better but he was still very down. We asked him what his next plan is but he just said he didn't have one and that he's not even thinking about it right now because he's still in shock. I'll check up on him after work again today but this is all so shocking and terrible.
OMG, this is INSANE, we have a bomb threat today, I'm outta here!
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Terrible Hump Day
I knew Sally was due March 10th, but it's just so crazy to think she has a baby now! Wow, it's actually alive and kicking. A new human being was born. It's so small and so cute! The more I see of these situations the more I yearn to have my own experience. One day...maybe in the distant future, I'll be able to have my own FB post about giving birth to my new baby. I don't know any details about the birth or if she gets pain meds. I haven't talked to her, I know about just as much as you do.
My futon came yesterday and I had to unpack it and put it together. It's not that heavy but because I strained my muscles from moving the heavy couch into my bedroom the day before, I could barely pick anything up. Trust me, it was pretty difficult. But somehow I managed. I put everything together and I got to sleep on a brand new futon. It was amazing. I get kind of cold now because it's "leather" so it's not as warm as cloth/fabric made materials. So I think I might need to double up on the blankets. Or maybe I should line the futon with some sheets. Well, I'll play around with it and see what works. I'll send you a picture of the futon later.
My arms really really really really hurt today. I can barely type. I know I said that yesterday but it's really true today. I was trying to blow my nose earlier and I couldn't even apply enough pressure onto my nose to wipe it. It was pathetic. I'm also kind of upset/disappointed. I paid $45 for them to deliver the futon but all they did was drop it off. They didn't even set it up for me. Isn't set up included with delivery most of the time?? I don't know, I barely get things delivered.
My BF told me last night that he told his parents that he's more serious about us and apparently, his parents took it as we are getting married tomorrow or something and they already started thinking about how many tables of people to invite to the wedding. Which is CRAZY because he hasn't even proposed yet or thought about proposing or even has the ring. And this is exactly why I don't tell my family anything because they would just run with it and probably book the restaurant or something.
So this is crazy. We've had a bunch of really crazy things happen in clinic today. I had a patient that complained about me today claiming that I attacked him. I don't know the details or what/how he's claiming I attacked him but the claims are ridiculous. I would never attack anyone. There were two other patients that came in to see other providers today and both of them attacked their provider, calling them names and threatening to hurt them. What is this?? It's like everyone just woke up and decided to show up here and be crazy. Man, I've had a long day, I can't wait for it to be OVER!
I've also had FIVE patients contact me today and tell me that they still have not gotten their medications that I claimed to have ordered for them during their last exam...and when I checked, it was true, I forgot. Gosh, I've been really terrible about remembering to order medications lately. I just finish signing the chart and then forget all about what I'm suppose to do. I really should pay extra special attention next time! I've been doing a really good job earlier last month and now that I'm slacking a little bit, this happens! Ugh, everything happens at once and makes me feel like I'm terribly inadequate. I'm going to go home and sulk a little. *sad face
My futon came yesterday and I had to unpack it and put it together. It's not that heavy but because I strained my muscles from moving the heavy couch into my bedroom the day before, I could barely pick anything up. Trust me, it was pretty difficult. But somehow I managed. I put everything together and I got to sleep on a brand new futon. It was amazing. I get kind of cold now because it's "leather" so it's not as warm as cloth/fabric made materials. So I think I might need to double up on the blankets. Or maybe I should line the futon with some sheets. Well, I'll play around with it and see what works. I'll send you a picture of the futon later.
My arms really really really really hurt today. I can barely type. I know I said that yesterday but it's really true today. I was trying to blow my nose earlier and I couldn't even apply enough pressure onto my nose to wipe it. It was pathetic. I'm also kind of upset/disappointed. I paid $45 for them to deliver the futon but all they did was drop it off. They didn't even set it up for me. Isn't set up included with delivery most of the time?? I don't know, I barely get things delivered.
My BF told me last night that he told his parents that he's more serious about us and apparently, his parents took it as we are getting married tomorrow or something and they already started thinking about how many tables of people to invite to the wedding. Which is CRAZY because he hasn't even proposed yet or thought about proposing or even has the ring. And this is exactly why I don't tell my family anything because they would just run with it and probably book the restaurant or something.
So this is crazy. We've had a bunch of really crazy things happen in clinic today. I had a patient that complained about me today claiming that I attacked him. I don't know the details or what/how he's claiming I attacked him but the claims are ridiculous. I would never attack anyone. There were two other patients that came in to see other providers today and both of them attacked their provider, calling them names and threatening to hurt them. What is this?? It's like everyone just woke up and decided to show up here and be crazy. Man, I've had a long day, I can't wait for it to be OVER!
I've also had FIVE patients contact me today and tell me that they still have not gotten their medications that I claimed to have ordered for them during their last exam...and when I checked, it was true, I forgot. Gosh, I've been really terrible about remembering to order medications lately. I just finish signing the chart and then forget all about what I'm suppose to do. I really should pay extra special attention next time! I've been doing a really good job earlier last month and now that I'm slacking a little bit, this happens! Ugh, everything happens at once and makes me feel like I'm terribly inadequate. I'm going to go home and sulk a little. *sad face
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Moving a couch
Hello Friend and Hello World!
I'm extra happy today because I'm getting my new futon delivered. It's going to be tricky, because it's getting delivered during my working hours so I'll have to somehow managed to sneak out of work and open my apartment for the delivery people and then sneak back into work, all while not getting too behind on patient care. And of course, my schedule is BOOKED today so that's going to be tough. We'll see how it all pans out. But I'm excited because I'm going to be sleeping more comfortably tonight! Well....if all goes well and it gets delivered lol.
I spent 2+ hours yesterday trying to move my 200lbs couch into my bedroom. Since I'm getting the new futon, I wanted to move my current couch somewhere else so there's room for the futon. It was SO DIFFICULT. I told my BF that it's probably one of the most difficult things I've ever done and he just said "wow, that just means you've had an easy life." I'm not saying that I haven't had a relatively easy life, but seriously, that was some difficult stuff. It's a couch that has a pull out bed, so you can't really flip it around because the pull out bed falls out. And it did fall out on me SEVERAL times and I had to try to maneuver it around and somehow push it back in. It was so heavy and I'm so weak. I dropped the couch a couple of times and it felt like an earthquake. Since I live on the second floor, I'm really surprised the people below me didn't come up and complain. I actually did want someone to knock on my door and complain, then perhaps they could come in and help me move the couch. Several times when I got stuck in the hallway and I couldn't move the couch any further and it was stuck at the bedroom door, I really considered going to home depot and hiring one of those squatting workers to help me move it. Either that or ask my neighbors. I know this one guy that lives across from me downstairs and he's so nice. I've spoken to him a few times and every time he catches me with a lot of groceries or things to carry he always offers to help. I'm sure he would have helped me move the couch. But ending up, I didn't ask anyone, it just took a buttload of time, but I didn't ask anyone and I managed to get the couch into the room. My arms feel like jelly and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to move the couch anywhere. Not even when I leave. The apartment can have all this furniture. I don't want to move furniture ever again. That was a pretty traumatic experience. Maybe my BF is right...my life is too easy to things like this seem climbing Mt. Everst to me. Well, to be fair, it was like 200lbs and I had to move it all by myself. And my hallway is very narrow and so is the door so I had to tip the couch in weird angles to get it to fit into the doorway and I had to do this ALL by myself. I can't over emphasize this more. I think I pulled something in my hip and knee. They both hurt today.
I just realized Sally's baby was due yesterday. I wonder if she gave birth. I would think she would send me a picture or announce it on FB if she did give birth. But then again, if I gave birth, I'd probably be tired out of my mind. That would not be the first thing I'd do, I'd probably eat or sleep or dose myself up on pain meds. LoL.
So I don't remember if I explained why I got in a big fight with my BF and we almost broke up. It was because I was rushing to get married and he wanted to take his time and it's always the same stuff I think. I'm always trying to accelerate our relationship and he's always taking his time. We are never on the same page about these things. It really frustrates me because this links back to when we were in grad school and he's always trying to get out of being in a relationship and I'm always pushing for a relationship. And now that we are on the same page about being in a relationship, I want to take things further and get married and he wants to take his time. Ugh, it brings back all the memories/frustrations/hurt from grad school when he does this. Just reminds me of how not committed he is. I don't want to say this, but I feel like i'm jealous of this job. His job get so much attention and he's so committed to it. If he just put half his attention that he puts towards his job to me, then I'd be SOO HAPPY. SO HAPPY. Not sitting here, moping and complaining about his lack of commitment.
I can't believe even though I wore glasses, grapefruit juice squirted into my eye. It burned like crazy for a while. I knew what I should have done, I should have went to wash it out but I didn't, I was too lazy. And my arms hurt. I have so many excuses. So I just sat there and let it burn until it went away. Then I texted you and told you about it when my injured eye closed. Sometimes I feel like I'm such a retard. Can't believe it somehow managed to go between my glasses. I didn't even find any fruit juice on my lenses, so it really just went straight for my eye. Terrible.
I'm extra happy today because I'm getting my new futon delivered. It's going to be tricky, because it's getting delivered during my working hours so I'll have to somehow managed to sneak out of work and open my apartment for the delivery people and then sneak back into work, all while not getting too behind on patient care. And of course, my schedule is BOOKED today so that's going to be tough. We'll see how it all pans out. But I'm excited because I'm going to be sleeping more comfortably tonight! Well....if all goes well and it gets delivered lol.
I spent 2+ hours yesterday trying to move my 200lbs couch into my bedroom. Since I'm getting the new futon, I wanted to move my current couch somewhere else so there's room for the futon. It was SO DIFFICULT. I told my BF that it's probably one of the most difficult things I've ever done and he just said "wow, that just means you've had an easy life." I'm not saying that I haven't had a relatively easy life, but seriously, that was some difficult stuff. It's a couch that has a pull out bed, so you can't really flip it around because the pull out bed falls out. And it did fall out on me SEVERAL times and I had to try to maneuver it around and somehow push it back in. It was so heavy and I'm so weak. I dropped the couch a couple of times and it felt like an earthquake. Since I live on the second floor, I'm really surprised the people below me didn't come up and complain. I actually did want someone to knock on my door and complain, then perhaps they could come in and help me move the couch. Several times when I got stuck in the hallway and I couldn't move the couch any further and it was stuck at the bedroom door, I really considered going to home depot and hiring one of those squatting workers to help me move it. Either that or ask my neighbors. I know this one guy that lives across from me downstairs and he's so nice. I've spoken to him a few times and every time he catches me with a lot of groceries or things to carry he always offers to help. I'm sure he would have helped me move the couch. But ending up, I didn't ask anyone, it just took a buttload of time, but I didn't ask anyone and I managed to get the couch into the room. My arms feel like jelly and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to move the couch anywhere. Not even when I leave. The apartment can have all this furniture. I don't want to move furniture ever again. That was a pretty traumatic experience. Maybe my BF is right...my life is too easy to things like this seem climbing Mt. Everst to me. Well, to be fair, it was like 200lbs and I had to move it all by myself. And my hallway is very narrow and so is the door so I had to tip the couch in weird angles to get it to fit into the doorway and I had to do this ALL by myself. I can't over emphasize this more. I think I pulled something in my hip and knee. They both hurt today.
I just realized Sally's baby was due yesterday. I wonder if she gave birth. I would think she would send me a picture or announce it on FB if she did give birth. But then again, if I gave birth, I'd probably be tired out of my mind. That would not be the first thing I'd do, I'd probably eat or sleep or dose myself up on pain meds. LoL.
So I don't remember if I explained why I got in a big fight with my BF and we almost broke up. It was because I was rushing to get married and he wanted to take his time and it's always the same stuff I think. I'm always trying to accelerate our relationship and he's always taking his time. We are never on the same page about these things. It really frustrates me because this links back to when we were in grad school and he's always trying to get out of being in a relationship and I'm always pushing for a relationship. And now that we are on the same page about being in a relationship, I want to take things further and get married and he wants to take his time. Ugh, it brings back all the memories/frustrations/hurt from grad school when he does this. Just reminds me of how not committed he is. I don't want to say this, but I feel like i'm jealous of this job. His job get so much attention and he's so committed to it. If he just put half his attention that he puts towards his job to me, then I'd be SOO HAPPY. SO HAPPY. Not sitting here, moping and complaining about his lack of commitment.
I can't believe even though I wore glasses, grapefruit juice squirted into my eye. It burned like crazy for a while. I knew what I should have done, I should have went to wash it out but I didn't, I was too lazy. And my arms hurt. I have so many excuses. So I just sat there and let it burn until it went away. Then I texted you and told you about it when my injured eye closed. Sometimes I feel like I'm such a retard. Can't believe it somehow managed to go between my glasses. I didn't even find any fruit juice on my lenses, so it really just went straight for my eye. Terrible.
Monday, March 10, 2014
Hello Monday!
Hello! It's Monday again!
Weekends always fly by so fast! I spent most of Saturday running errands. I didn't know I'd have so many errands to run but I guess I did. I bought a futon, I'm sorta happy with it given the limited choices here, but at least it's better than a very crappy cough. I'm excited, it's going to be delivered, tomorrow (Tuesday!). I'll have so somehow juggle work and getting this futon delivered, so we'll see how that goes. I also went grocery shopping and I think I did a few other things Saturday...but that was it. OMG, do you remember how I have "Sally's" engagement ring and I wear it on my finger because I thought it was a waste for her to throw WHITE gold away?? Well, I finally got rid of it. I'm becoming THAT desperate that I think the ring has a "bad aura" so I'm going to get rid of it to see if I can get hitched any sooner. Yes...I've become THAT desperate.
On Saturday evening I decided to go online shopping because I actually haven't shopped or bought anything in a long time! So I got these boots and shorts from AE. They are getting shipped out, hopefully I get them soon! Then I went to Old Navy on Sunday and I got like 5 things (3 shirts for my brother and 2 for me) and with all the discounts (because I applied for an Old Navy credit card), it all came out to be $1.97!!! Can you believe that?? That's totally a steal! Wow, that was crazy! I was really excited about getting such a good deal! I also got some new work pants and a tank from Target. Yeah, so I went a little overboard on shopping but I'm excited about all the things I got! :)
The rest of Sunday was spent helping John move. He bought a house and he's leaving my apartment complex. *sighs I'll miss him. But at least he didn't move super far away. He's still relatively close. But not like 1 min walking close, but like 7 min driving on freeway close.
And now, just like a dream, it's all over and I'm back to work. Gosh, weekends always pass by so quickly and then weekdays always pass by so slowly. But at the same time, I can't believe it's March already! Wow, did time pass by fast. It's like going by so slowly and quickly at the same time! I felt like it was just yesterday that it turned 2014 and now it's been 3 months already. Geez.
Well, we are finally in the same time zone! Sorry you guys lost an hour, but I'm sure you will get used to it soon :)
Oh, let me answer some of your questions from the last blog comment. John's a morning person so he's always woken up this early to go work out. That's just how he's geared. And you thought I was crazy for waking up at 6am! This is a new extreme! He's a vegetarian so he cooks vegetarian food...so a lot of veggies and beans and stuff. I really liked Gravity. My BF had to talk me into watching it but I ended up liking it more. And I had to talk my BF into watching About Time and he ended up liking that movie more. Funny how that worked out. LoL. Neither of us were really into watching Frozen. I haven't been really into the recent Disney cartoons, they are TOO inspiration and they try TOO hard to teach you morals and lessons. I don't like that when they try too hard and you know you are learning...lol
Weekends always fly by so fast! I spent most of Saturday running errands. I didn't know I'd have so many errands to run but I guess I did. I bought a futon, I'm sorta happy with it given the limited choices here, but at least it's better than a very crappy cough. I'm excited, it's going to be delivered, tomorrow (Tuesday!). I'll have so somehow juggle work and getting this futon delivered, so we'll see how that goes. I also went grocery shopping and I think I did a few other things Saturday...but that was it. OMG, do you remember how I have "Sally's" engagement ring and I wear it on my finger because I thought it was a waste for her to throw WHITE gold away?? Well, I finally got rid of it. I'm becoming THAT desperate that I think the ring has a "bad aura" so I'm going to get rid of it to see if I can get hitched any sooner. Yes...I've become THAT desperate.
On Saturday evening I decided to go online shopping because I actually haven't shopped or bought anything in a long time! So I got these boots and shorts from AE. They are getting shipped out, hopefully I get them soon! Then I went to Old Navy on Sunday and I got like 5 things (3 shirts for my brother and 2 for me) and with all the discounts (because I applied for an Old Navy credit card), it all came out to be $1.97!!! Can you believe that?? That's totally a steal! Wow, that was crazy! I was really excited about getting such a good deal! I also got some new work pants and a tank from Target. Yeah, so I went a little overboard on shopping but I'm excited about all the things I got! :)
The rest of Sunday was spent helping John move. He bought a house and he's leaving my apartment complex. *sighs I'll miss him. But at least he didn't move super far away. He's still relatively close. But not like 1 min walking close, but like 7 min driving on freeway close.
And now, just like a dream, it's all over and I'm back to work. Gosh, weekends always pass by so quickly and then weekdays always pass by so slowly. But at the same time, I can't believe it's March already! Wow, did time pass by fast. It's like going by so slowly and quickly at the same time! I felt like it was just yesterday that it turned 2014 and now it's been 3 months already. Geez.
Well, we are finally in the same time zone! Sorry you guys lost an hour, but I'm sure you will get used to it soon :)
Oh, let me answer some of your questions from the last blog comment. John's a morning person so he's always woken up this early to go work out. That's just how he's geared. And you thought I was crazy for waking up at 6am! This is a new extreme! He's a vegetarian so he cooks vegetarian food...so a lot of veggies and beans and stuff. I really liked Gravity. My BF had to talk me into watching it but I ended up liking it more. And I had to talk my BF into watching About Time and he ended up liking that movie more. Funny how that worked out. LoL. Neither of us were really into watching Frozen. I haven't been really into the recent Disney cartoons, they are TOO inspiration and they try TOO hard to teach you morals and lessons. I don't like that when they try too hard and you know you are learning...lol
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Two Day Blog
I've been meaning to blog about this for a while but I kept forgetting...when you go to a public restroom, does it ever worry you when the area around the toilet is wet? I mean, the first thing that comes up in my mind is "is that pee?" Why would it be wet around the toilet right? I mean, if there was a leak or if it overflowed but if there was no evidence of such, I mean, it's more likely than not...pee. And if it is pee...do you still go? I mean, you kind of have to stand around that area and maybe even ON it so are you going to risk stepping in pee? And when you take off your pants, your pant legs touch the floor even MORE and might be soaking up all this pee. So now you are on your tippy toes, try to balance yourself and not fall onto the toilet seat, I'm squating, to avoid touching the toilet seat, but squatting on tippy toes, and this is all while I'm trying to hold up my pant legs so they don't touch the ground. It's a very delicate balancing act. Any mistakes and you are going to end up very DIRTY. Just wanted to share this because I feel like it has happened WAY too many times to me.
So I'm back! I'm back to "reality". My life back in the small town. I don't know what's been going on but I've been very fatigued! I slept the whole plane ride back, missed all the pretzels and drinks, and then I almost fell asleep driving back (but I guess that always happens) and then I went to bed super early last night but I'm still super tired right now. I feel like I've been sleeping a lot but I'm still not rejuvinated. What's going on?? Ugh. You know how people always say "you are young, you'll recover fast"...no I won't. That's a lie. I lose like half an hour of sleep and I spend like a whole week trying to recover from it. I have this theory that I'm really an 80 year old stuck in a 27 year old's body. My life style and thoughts surely reflect that I'm an 80 year old. It all makes sense!
So I spent most of last night rearranging my place around. I don't sleep in my room anymore, so I just pulled out all the furniture from my room and tried to rearrange it in my livingroom. So I have a nightstand and more counterspace in the livingroom to put my stuff. I really can't wait until I go furniture shopping this weekend and have them take away all that old gross furniture and deliver me NEW comfortable furniture. That's on top of my TO DO list this weekend.
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So I actually started this blog yesterday but I got so busy I didn't finish it....so here's my 2nd attempt to finish this blog. LoL.
I wanted to tell you that I watched a lot of movies this weekend because it was raining so much. I watched The Croods, Legos Movie, Gravity and About Time. I liked all those movies. They were all good choices. I brought back the last installment of the Wildwood series. Can't wait to finish that adventure! It's almost like Harry Potter but there's only 3 books. But to be honest, the series has been kinda going downhill. But it's still nice to finish the series. Just like The Hungery Games series went downhill, it is still nice to finish it. Just to feel complete, get a sense of closure.
There's a surprise mini party today! John decided to buy everyone lunch today. He didn't tell anyone in advanced. He just decided last night at like 7pm that he was going to do it. He ordered THREE GIANT pizzas. Each pizza cuts out like 40 pieces. And then he's also cooking a few things and bringing drinks. I don't know how he's going to manage to bring so many things on his own. O_O And I don't know whose going to get the pizzas either because they don't deliver. Well, I'm sure everything will work out and all the details will iron itself out as time unfolds today. I'm just excited about all the food! Woowhoo!
My eyes are bloodshot red today! I must be REALLY tired! I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm pretty sure I'm getting the same amount of sleep as I normally do, I'm probably not getting restful sleep though. I'm sleeping on a really old, cheap, uncomfortable couch. That's probably why. I usually wake up before my alarm, but lately, I've been letting my alarm ring for minuets before I stop it and wake up. That's pretty pathetic for my standards. Gosh, what's happening to me? I'm falling apart.
John bought this gym pass where you can bring someone with you for free. And I was going to go to the gym with him but he always goes at like 4am. Yes, you read that correctly, 4AM! That's crazy. I'm having immense trouble trying to get up at 6am, let alone 4am now? And for what? To work out? I don't know, I kinda want to do it, but sorta REALLY don't want to. We were going to go today but he had to cook this morning and buy the drinks.
Ok, I just finished helping him unload everything. OMG, he bought so much stuff, it's CRAZY! He always over does it with food! CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY. There's a lot of chips, dips, water, drinks, sodas, and there's still THREE GIGANTIC pizza's coming! It's going to be a FOOD FEST TODAY!!! YAY!! I just need to make it past my BUSY BUSY over loaded schedule!
My BF's mom called him last night and wanted to buy him tickets to go home for Labor Day weekend, which is in September!!! OMG, she plans FAR in advanced! I told my BF that I might be in HAWAII in September :) But then again, who knows, I always plan these things and it always falls through. I am really tired from traveling too. Remember how I told you that I don't like to travel anymore. It just wipes me out. All the security checks and waiting around and small cramped seats on the plane...just gives me the chills! The seats are so small on the plane! No wonder bigger people have to buy TWO seats! Come on! I feel like I can barely fit into one seat comfortably! Well, I did gain weight so maybe that's why...
I'm very worried about my blood shot eyes, I look like I'm on drugs! Or I haven't slept in 5 days! Maybe I should put some eye drops in...O_O ....I got to go! I'll blog a little later if all goes well...
Oh yeah, I have my dentist appointment today. It's not a cleaning, just an exam, but I'm still super excited! I love dental work! Yes!
So I'm back! I'm back to "reality". My life back in the small town. I don't know what's been going on but I've been very fatigued! I slept the whole plane ride back, missed all the pretzels and drinks, and then I almost fell asleep driving back (but I guess that always happens) and then I went to bed super early last night but I'm still super tired right now. I feel like I've been sleeping a lot but I'm still not rejuvinated. What's going on?? Ugh. You know how people always say "you are young, you'll recover fast"...no I won't. That's a lie. I lose like half an hour of sleep and I spend like a whole week trying to recover from it. I have this theory that I'm really an 80 year old stuck in a 27 year old's body. My life style and thoughts surely reflect that I'm an 80 year old. It all makes sense!
So I spent most of last night rearranging my place around. I don't sleep in my room anymore, so I just pulled out all the furniture from my room and tried to rearrange it in my livingroom. So I have a nightstand and more counterspace in the livingroom to put my stuff. I really can't wait until I go furniture shopping this weekend and have them take away all that old gross furniture and deliver me NEW comfortable furniture. That's on top of my TO DO list this weekend.
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So I actually started this blog yesterday but I got so busy I didn't finish it....so here's my 2nd attempt to finish this blog. LoL.
I wanted to tell you that I watched a lot of movies this weekend because it was raining so much. I watched The Croods, Legos Movie, Gravity and About Time. I liked all those movies. They were all good choices. I brought back the last installment of the Wildwood series. Can't wait to finish that adventure! It's almost like Harry Potter but there's only 3 books. But to be honest, the series has been kinda going downhill. But it's still nice to finish the series. Just like The Hungery Games series went downhill, it is still nice to finish it. Just to feel complete, get a sense of closure.
There's a surprise mini party today! John decided to buy everyone lunch today. He didn't tell anyone in advanced. He just decided last night at like 7pm that he was going to do it. He ordered THREE GIANT pizzas. Each pizza cuts out like 40 pieces. And then he's also cooking a few things and bringing drinks. I don't know how he's going to manage to bring so many things on his own. O_O And I don't know whose going to get the pizzas either because they don't deliver. Well, I'm sure everything will work out and all the details will iron itself out as time unfolds today. I'm just excited about all the food! Woowhoo!
My eyes are bloodshot red today! I must be REALLY tired! I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm pretty sure I'm getting the same amount of sleep as I normally do, I'm probably not getting restful sleep though. I'm sleeping on a really old, cheap, uncomfortable couch. That's probably why. I usually wake up before my alarm, but lately, I've been letting my alarm ring for minuets before I stop it and wake up. That's pretty pathetic for my standards. Gosh, what's happening to me? I'm falling apart.
John bought this gym pass where you can bring someone with you for free. And I was going to go to the gym with him but he always goes at like 4am. Yes, you read that correctly, 4AM! That's crazy. I'm having immense trouble trying to get up at 6am, let alone 4am now? And for what? To work out? I don't know, I kinda want to do it, but sorta REALLY don't want to. We were going to go today but he had to cook this morning and buy the drinks.
Ok, I just finished helping him unload everything. OMG, he bought so much stuff, it's CRAZY! He always over does it with food! CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY. There's a lot of chips, dips, water, drinks, sodas, and there's still THREE GIGANTIC pizza's coming! It's going to be a FOOD FEST TODAY!!! YAY!! I just need to make it past my BUSY BUSY over loaded schedule!
My BF's mom called him last night and wanted to buy him tickets to go home for Labor Day weekend, which is in September!!! OMG, she plans FAR in advanced! I told my BF that I might be in HAWAII in September :) But then again, who knows, I always plan these things and it always falls through. I am really tired from traveling too. Remember how I told you that I don't like to travel anymore. It just wipes me out. All the security checks and waiting around and small cramped seats on the plane...just gives me the chills! The seats are so small on the plane! No wonder bigger people have to buy TWO seats! Come on! I feel like I can barely fit into one seat comfortably! Well, I did gain weight so maybe that's why...
I'm very worried about my blood shot eyes, I look like I'm on drugs! Or I haven't slept in 5 days! Maybe I should put some eye drops in...O_O ....I got to go! I'll blog a little later if all goes well...
Oh yeah, I have my dentist appointment today. It's not a cleaning, just an exam, but I'm still super excited! I love dental work! Yes!
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