Halfway through the week!

I had a huge headache yesterday, was a little dizzy too, I think I was just really overwhelmed with patients and seeing so many of them. I was really burned out. I was so out of it by the end of the day. I was barely functioning. I went home and started mindlessly eating. I'm pretty sure I hate more calories than a typical dinner, but then John calls me and pulls me out for dinner. I was so full, I really should have said no but I went anyway and I ate AGAIN. TWO DINNERS. Wow, I really am on my way to obsesity. Now this morning we have a potluck breakfast and of course, knowing me, I woke up and ate breakfast...forgetting we have a potluck, so now I'm going to eat TWO breakfasts. Wow. I'm really something. I thought I really wouldn't even be able to have breakfast with everyone but I just checked my schedule and my 8:00am just happened to have cancelled so I have the 8-8:30 time slot to eat (again). Haha. Love how things work out sometimes.

I was so tired from work and foodcoma that I went to bed at 9pm. I'm pretty sure I did anyway. Not sure, last night was a huge blur. I had three missed calls this morning when I checked my phone. Yup, just as you guessed, all from my BF. I wonder if he thinks I'm dead. He also emailed me yesterday but I was so busy I didn't respond. I didn't do anything but work and eat yesterday. That was my day. Actually, most the time, that's predomintly what I do for every mon-fri. Haha. Work and eat. That's it.

I had a patient yesterday that was really offensive. Like I said, I was really busy so I worked straight through lunch. I didn't eat. So my first patient in the afternoon said to me "Wow, you must have had onions for lunch huh?" I was kinda taken aback. Was he implying that my breath stinks? I apologized right away and said "I'm sorry, does my breath stink?" And he responded "No, you're fine" and then I was even more confused...what is that suppose to mean when he asks me if I had onions for lunch?? So he then asks me again "So did you have onions for lunch??" and I was even more confused and at this point a little offended and frustrated. I responded with "actually, no, I didn't even eat I've been so busy, I worked straight through lunch. What you are smelling is probably ketoacidosis, which is my baby breaking up excess sugars/fats so I can remain alive since I haven't eaten in such a LONG time" and then he was silent. So I proceeded with the exam, only speaking when absolutely necessary since the patient finds my breath so appalling. He did other things that were super annoying during the rest of the exam too. Just his smug look and his attitude, it was really difficult to hide my irritation behind a smile. Then at the very end of the exam he started to demand for so much, claiming that he spoke to his friend and his friend got all this stuff and now he wants all this and that. When I said no he was arguing with me so much...over and over again. It was ridiculous. I sent him over to my technician, which he argued with over and over again. Then he requested to talk to me again, which he argued with again. When I said no again, he went back to my technician. This lasted a while. Keep in mind I was trying to finish my charts and see other patients at the same time. Ugh. Arguing with people is so draining. Sometimes I want to just give in but I can't let them win. Then he's going to tell his friends and they are going to come back and just argue with me until I'm tired and I'll end up giving everyone what they want just because they demand it. I've got to put my foot down and grow a spine! That's my goal this year...GROW A SPINE!

I think my brother is dating someone. If you check out his FB page, which I do from time to time just to make sure he's not doing anything fishy, he updated his profile picture and he's in it with this other girl. Hmm...either they are really good friends or something's going on. It's hard to imagine my brother is dating someone. I tried to FB stalk him a little bit but there's no other indication that they are together. I will just have to monitor this situation. If you find anything, let me know!

I'm excited to go home this weekend. I haven't been back for 3 weeks now. It's been a long time. I know I say I'm all excited and happy now but as soon as I go home, I know I'm going to get in a fight with someone or they are going to mention my BF (in a loving way) and I my eyelid is going to twitch again and I'm going to blow up on them. It happens every time. Even when I'm on the phone, it always happens. "Hi! How are you? How's your BF?" OMG! WHO CARES ABOUT MY BF?!?!? WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS ON MY BACK ABOUT GETTING MARRIED?!?!? STOP IT!! I'M GOING TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS FAMILY AND NEVER COME BACK!!!...But I always come back. And I always miss them, even though they do incredibly annoying things. And like I've mentioned before, I'm pretty sure it's my problem, not theirs. I shouldn't really have such a terrible adverse reaction the smallest mention of my BF. It's weird. I can't explain it but it just bothers me. I don't want them to talk about him, ask me about him or anything about him. Best thing to do would be for them to pretend he doesn't exist. That would be awesome. :)

It's gotten to a point I feel like Yelping is a chore. It's something I want to keep up with but just don't have motivation for it anymore. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I just yelped right away instead of waiting for like 20 restaurants to pile up before I did it. But I'm always so lazy to do it now anyway. I can see why people don't yelp (write reviews). It's tiring. I've written a few lately where I haven't really done my template. You know, where I split up the categories and talk about each one. But those seemed so generic and I didn't really much to share when I'm just free styling like that. I feel like I'm minimially contributing to the yelp community. Either that or I'm contributing subpar material. I guess that's how I've been doing my work lately. At subpar levels.

I'm sick of travelling. There, I said it. I'm sick and tired of travelling. I only go up to see my BF like every couple to few months. And I'm still sick and tired of it. There are non-stop flights now, which is great, but still, I don't want to travel. I have to pack and get ready and then make sure my stomach isn't going crazy. Let me remind you of that infamous road trip with my brother up to visit you. That was TERRIBLE. I think I seriously have some PTSD from it. Maybe that just ruined travelling for me. Ugh, I dont' know. My BF keeps chatting with me about coming up during May and I'm very unmotivated. We'll see how it works out.