Yay Painkillers!

It worked! I woke up at about 5am this morning (from hip pain). I put the ibuprofen and some water on my night stand the night before (knowing I probably wouldn't be able to move when the pain starts, I popped one pill and went back to sleep. I looked up online that it takes about 25 mins for the medication to work. Since I'm only symptomatic in the morning, it should kick in by the time I wake up and I won't be in pain. When I woke up this morning, I could move my legs! It was amazing! I could bend them and stretch them and get up!! Well, all within reason. I couldn't gain full function just yet. I still had some pain but for the most part, I was able to take it easy and complete all my morning rituals and get to work on time without feeling like I was going to collapse from the pain! Painkillers are GREAT! I don't know why I didn't give in sooner! I should take them ALL the time! Well, not ALL the time, just you know what I mean! I just feel like the quality of my life has dramatically improved.

So for full disclosure sake, I have had a history of being addicted to painkillers. Remember? When I broke my collarbone back in high school and I was prescribed Vicodin. Yeah, that. Well, I'll be sure to use ibuprofen with caution. Only when necessary. Or at least I'll try my best! Promise!

I got your magazines today!! Thank you so much!! There's so many pages to go through! I'm so excited! Now that I don't have books to read before bed, this will become my bedtime book! :)

I just zoned out at lunch today. I was sitting in front of the computer and trying to complete a patient chart but I just couldn't control my fingers. My brain was telling my fingers to move but I just know what to type. I was trying to focus on the computer and read the chart but I just wasn't understanding any of the words I was reading. It was surreal. I was running out of time. The afternoon patients were about to show up. I just couldn't get myself to finish my charts. I felt like I just needed a break but I didn't have time for one. Suffocating feeling. Knowing that you need to do work, but not being able to get anything done. I was also having trouble decided how to manage and treat a few of my patients. I was probably just stalling. It's what I do most of the time when I'm stumped. I have this way of completing my charts. I start from the easiest ones and work my way up to the tough cases. If I see a chart with a tough case, I almost always avoid it until the end, when there are no charts left, that's the only one that's left for me to complete. But lately, I've had many cases like that and everyday is a "stall that chart" day. Ugh. That's probably why my brain froze during lunch today.

Let me just say, I LOVE my secret santa! She's so thoughtful! I remember I wrote that I like crafts on my sheet and she went to Joanne's and got me a Joanne's tote bag and a gift card + coupons! She (I'm assuming it's a "she" because, again, she's very sweet and thoughtful) is really awesome! I can't wait to find out who she is!!

Let me know when you get your gift!!!! I'm so excited about it. I don't know if you'll like it or not, but I think it has many layers and meaning to it. It's very symbolic for me and I hope you'll see it the same way. I don't think it knew that it was a gift, so if you get the receipt, I'm sorry, try not to look at it. I'm really glad I found this on Groupon and it gave me such a good idea to get this!! :)

I went to bed every night dreading the morning because I knew the hip pain was going to be there waiting for me. But tonight, I can sleep assured that when I wake up, things will be better. I'm going to be functional and relatively pain free. I can return to being excited about the mornings again! :)