Day 2 of the New Year

Happy New Year, my friend!

It's 1 day after the office launch of 2014 yesterday. How did I spend the first day of 2014? Like how I always do...I ate (a little too much), got a tummy ache, and then took a 3 hour nap while I had the TV on comdey central watching a Futurama marthon. It was all good until the afternoon rolled around and I got a call from the new doctor that works here, let's call him, John. John called me and invited me over for dinner at his place. It was nice but that meant I had to drag my butt off of the couch and get dressed. That's what I did. And I cooked some veggies to bring over. Nothing fancy. It's frozen veggies that I heavily spiced up. Ending up tasting pretty good. He made a salad and some meatless pasta. I know, it sounds kind of weird, meatless pasta, but it tasted so good, if you didn't tell me, I would have tought it was REAL meat. Seriously. He told me it's way healthier and less calories, so I think I'm going to start consider using that more than real meat. He also offered me a fruit platter for dessert, which I polished off as well too. If you saw the amount that I'm eating, and how much I'm not exercising, you'd think I'm TRYING to gain weight and become a sumo wrestler or something.

I don't remember if I told you or not, but my BF is planning on coming back down MLK Jr. weekend. That's the weekend you usually come down to SD to visit me. *sighs* Good times. Anyways, so he was suppose to come down and then drive here to spend the weekend with me. But his proposal....is for me to drive back to SD and we meet up there. It's his parent's wedding anniversary and his mom wants him to spend it with the family. Which, of course, makes sense. But he's proposing that I have dinner with his family and he has dinner with mine and we "formally" meet each other's family with the BF/GF label. I mean, we've of course met each other's family's but NOT with the BF/GF title.

He also said it would be nice to meet his sister because his sister will give the final stamp of approval. He LOVES his sister so if his sister says no then apparently, we are not going to happen. That makes me nervous...what if she doesn't like me? If she doesn't give me the stamp of approval then it's over! Everything that we've been through and endured to be together, break up after break up will be for nothing! IT's so unfair because I need to get an "approval" from his sister but with my family, everyone LOVES him already. My grandma hasn't even met him and she's already pushing me to marry him. What is this craziness? He's so well loved and recieved and I have to fight for my place in his family. He said I can still think about it. He doesn't mind driving over here but I guess he prefers to stay in SD and celebrate his parents' anniversay with them. I told him I'd think about it but I'm most likely going to cave and concede to his request. Maybe I'll have him meet all my high school friends and tell him that they need their stamp of approval of if they don't like him then it's over between us. Put some pressure on him, so it's not just a breeze for him to date me.

You know how my brother is a hypocondriac. He thinks anything that goes wrong with him means he's dying. But he's such an oxymoron because you would think that someone that freaks out so much about every little health issue, would go seek medical care more often. But of course, like with his eye with he got that inflammation, he waited until it was VERY painful and super bad before he went to the emergency room and even then he missed many follow ups. Then he got kidney stones and he also waited until the pain was unmanageable before he went to the doctor. Now he's got some stomach issues and he's concerned he has stomach cancer and he's going to die. During his kidney stone treatment, he was told he has enlarged lymph nodes along his stomach lining. He's been having stomach pains. He's putting two and two together. He checked his symptoms on webmd and it said it's either peptic ulcer or stomach cancer. He's freaking out now because he thinks he's dying. He wants to see the doctor immediately but everyone's on break and he has school insurance, so I guess he can't see anyone right now? So I asked some of the doctor's here for advice and they ruled out stomach cancer but recommended more testing with his doctor. When I told him this, he asked me what testing? I told him to go see his doctor because it should be determined by his doctor what testing to get, I don't know all his medical history and symptoms, his doctor does. Then he got really upset at me and yelled at me saying that his doctor is incompetent and you basically have to tell his doctor what tests to order and what to do otherwise his doctor won't know what to do. Doesn't that just sound ridiculous to you????? You have to TELL your doctor what tests to order and what to do because they don't know?? No one DOES THAT! You go to your doctor with your symptoms and they are suppose to figure it out! I wish all my patients came in telling me what to do, then I wouldn't have to think. So we got in this argument because he said I didn't care enough about him to inquire specially what tests should be run on him and I didn't inquire specially enough about his symptoms to CURE him. Obviously if I didn't care about him then I wouldn't have even asked the doctors here in the first place!!!  He can be so unreasonable sometimes. It makes me so upset!

I actually ended up crying because of this. It's not just this, but it's a cumulation of a lot of things LIKE this. He always attacks me now and always blames me for things. It just makes me so sad to think how close we used to be and how much he dislikes me now. I mean, I'm sure deep down he still loves me (I hope) but he's always hurts me with his words and his attitude. I feel like we've lost our connection/our bond. We aren't the way we used to be anymore. OMG! OMG! I just realized MY MOM has said the EXACT same thing to me. I yelled at her a few times and she said it makes her said that I've changed and become so tempermental. It made her sad that I'm so distant and weird now. OMG! I've turned into my mother! Either that or it's a karma thing...what goes around, comes around. Geez. Sorry, that was a weird tangent...but seriously, my brother, ugh. What is going on with us? Or him? Brothers, can't live with them, can't live without them.

Victoria's Secret semi-annual sale is going on now!! I bought 4 bras yesterday. That was such a splurge. I'll probably return some of them, but I just wanted to buy more than not have enough. I got them online, so we'll see what they look like when they actually arrive!

I've had an easy morning so far. Half of my parents have not shown up. I like the holidays, people get busy and forget about their appointments :)

I hope you are doing well and I hope you had a great New Years! It's a new beginning! This year will bring you great things. Let the past be the past. Look forward to the future! Another year, here we come! :)