Nightmares

I started to watch Triumph in the Skies II yesterday and I'm SOOOO BORED. It's very NOT interesting. The story lines have been sooo terrible so far. If it wasn't for all the good looking people in the show, I would have stopped watching after the first episode! I do like watching it for the scenes of Europe. Makes me really want to travel. But THAT's it! I don't know if it's just really slow or WHAT but OMG, it's going to take a LOT of will power to finish this soap. Why did it get all those awards?? I don't understand. You were right though, it's really not that great! Bleh.

I'm pretty sure someone has some stomach issues today because starting from the MORNING, someone used the STAFF restroom and I just happened to use it right after, and let's just say, I am too scared to keep using it today. I've been holding all restroom breaks until lunchtime where I can run home and relieve myself. I've also been trying not to drink any water because I'm avoiding using the restroom today. Ugh, it's really gross. Reminds me of China.

I actually saw a patient yesterday that I was having trouble examining because they had all these scars that are in a pattern of small circles/dots really closesly spaced together! So imagine like a sponge with a ton of holes or a bee hive. It's like that! I don't know if I ever told you this but things with a lot of closely spaced holes really scare me. It's the weirdest phobia but it's really freaky to me for some reason. Makes me cringe. Ah, I'm still freaking out thinking about what I saw yesterday. Ahhhh...I have to stop thinking about it.

Ok, moving. So I watched The Mindy Project yesterday. I don't remember if you watch that show or not. It's so good! I enjoy that show because I feel like Mindy is me. But I'm less neurotic, mean and blunt. But she's more funny and witty. Anyways, we share a lot in common in terms of the way we think. Oh yeah, she also gets more guys. She always seems to jump from guy to guy to guy so quickly too. But something really exciting happened on the show last night. I don't want to say and spoil it for you just in case you watch it and you haven't gotten to that episode yet! It's worth watching!!

I had this nightmare last night. I was at my parent's house. I was getting ready to go out and my grandma turns to me and says "You're going out? OK, go out and get married! Have fun!". I was so taken aback by that comment. I had a double take. I was really angry in my dreams. I woke up kinda angry too. See, I AM totally crazy! Not only am I mentally unstable when I'm awake and interacting with people, I'm starting to have nightmares about this issue! It's like some internal conflict that escalating to the point psychosis. Wait, I'm not even sure if that last sentence even made very much sense. The point is, I think it's really bothering me and I need to do something about it soon before I go crazy. Yup, that's the bottom line there.

Last night I had rice ovalettes for dinner. Yes, all THREE BIG plate fulls. Really, I mean, I don't even eat THAT unhealthy, I just eat in WAY TOO BIG of portions. Food, my best friend and my worst enemy. Eventually I just know I'm going to eat my way to my grave. Speaking of death, did I tell you how the fortune teller revealed I'm going to live until I'm at least 88. OMG. That's nuts! Especially since I don't plan on living past 35! I have nothing planned past that age. I am not even taking good care of my body! How is it going to last me until I'm 88?? If this is true, I better start taking better care of myself. As in like stop eating like I'm going to die tomorrow type of mentality. Haha, I say that now but we'll see how long that lasts.

I had an idea. What do you think about my HK friend and my dental friend? You think they would make a good couple?? Just a thought.

Hope you are doing well, I miss you!
*BIG HUGS*