SWEET LITTLE KITTY

I know I already emailed you this picture by gosh this kitten is soooooooooo cute! I can't stop staring at it's cute little face. I'm in a trance O_O

 

 

 

 

 

 

I went out to dinner again last night with the new doctor, John. We went to a new American place that is actually really close to our place. I was pretty upset because I've been searching for chicken tortilla soup FOREVER here and yelp is almost useless here since no one really uses it or posts any reviews on it. So I've been searching and searching for tortilla soup and I get to this place and find out they HAVE IT THERE!! OMG. So I ordered it last night and it was delicious! Yum! I can't stop thinking about it. I really want to go back and SOON, but I know I should hold off. It started back at Berkeley when I went out to eat with....that other electrical engineer friend alot, let's can him "Edison". His real name starts with the same letter if you are wondering who it is. Edison and I have this pact that if we go eat somewhere and we both agree it's really good, we should return for at least a few weeks. Everytime we return sooner than that, the food just doesn't taste as good anymore. I don't know if it's because you raise your expectation SO high that there's no way the food will ever taste as good or I don't know why, but this rule has held true to me for a LONG time. Everytime Edison and I find a great place to eat, we go back really quickly and then it doesn't taste as good anymore and it gets ruined. So I'll try to honor that rule and not return to that place for a while. Oh yeah, I think it's also Edison's theory that if you wait a long time, then you'll really want it, and by the time you actually get it, you'll be grateful to have it and you won't be disappointed by the food. So we'll see.

 

Are you still looking at this cute little kitty? I am...lol

 

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I met my co-worker's son and daughter in law last night. They are all such nice people, I really do enjoy their company. I don't know who or how this thought started but they are probably the second or third people to ask me "So, I heard your fiance lives in Portland". "Fiance"? Haha, I wish. I shot back a quick reply "Fiance?? NOOOO, we are NOT at that status yet!! I wish we were, but he has different thoughts...." and I continued to ramble on. I must have really overreacted to it because the son that asked me was taken aback and he was apologizing profusely, "I'm sorry, I really didn't know it was such a sensitive topic" hahaha...whoops. I really didn't mean to overreact. I guess I was more reacting to my BF's lackluster attitude towards getting married SOON and all the frustration got projected onto this poor incident co-worker's son. LoL.

 

I'm still looking at the cute little kitty! I just sent the picture to my tech. She thinks it's adorable too...we are both just gawking at this cute little kitty! LoL.

 

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I just realized today is "hump day". Middle of the week! My classmate told me a joke one time. "After Monday and Tuesday, even the rest of the week is saying WTF". Hehehe. Get it?? That one always stuck out to me because it's so cleaver and funny. He's a really cleaver and funny guy! He always has really funny sayings. And he is super smart too. I got to meet up with him once or twice when I went up to Portland to visit my BF. I went hiking with him, to pass the time since my BF went to work and left me alone in his apartment. We went out to eat and we hung out together, it was fun. He went home for Christmas break and he was telling me how annoying his parents were. They were constantly on his tail about getting married. "Wives don't just fall out of the sky!! It's like my parents expect a wife to just drop into my lap or something!" And it's totally true. I mean, my parents were so adamantly against dating for most of my life. And then when you hit like 23-24, they are like "Why aren't you married???" Really mom and dad? You wnat me to go from "OMG, don't even look at that guy, NO DATING!" to walking down the isle over night?? I don't think so!

 

Asian parents always have these unrealistic expectations of society and how the world runs. It's like they don't know we aren't in the 1950's anymore. There isn't arranged marriages anymore. Well, I mean, there are, but it's frowned upon now. It's more about dating and finding your true love now. So you've got to give me that transition time to DATE people. But nope, it goes from "NO DATING" to "GET MARRIED and SPIT ME OUT A COUPLE OF GRANDKIDS NOW!!". Aiya!

 

But I'm glad I'm not the only one suffering from this insanity. My classmate feels the same way. And he's a guy, so at least it's not even a daughter thing. What erks me the most is when Asian parents treat daughters vs sons differently. I see it all the time with my brother and I. It's just one of those things that can make me pop a blood vessel if you get me worked up and talking about it. It's just so unfair and it makes absolutely no sense. Well, I'm sure it makes plenty of sense to them and that's why they practice it but it makes no sense to me! I guess it's hard for me to look past the benefits of them caudling me and letting my brother run free when I feel like I'm in prison and under a microscope all the time. Well, I'm sure other Asian daughters have it worse. Nice thing about being in such a BIG world, there is always someone that has it worse than you. You can count on it. I don't know why it does make me feel better, but knowing that someone else is enduring a simliar fate as me but they have it worse and they are still alive and trying to live their life, makes me feel a little bit better. If someone else can handle a situation worse than mine, then so can I. so can I.

 

* Still looking at the kitty.....so cute  :)

 

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Last night I thought someone broke into my apartment. I heard a loud sound and it sounded like someone opened my front door and slammed it shut. I was really scared. I slowly got out of bed and checked my whole apartment and checked the front door to make sure it's locked. Everything looked fine. And then I realized, why would someone break into my apartment and slam the door to warm me they had broken into my apartment? It must have been my neighbors that slammed the door really hard and it sounded like it was coming from my apartment because I have paper thin walls. But it's all those Sherlock Holmes shows I've been watching that has really freaked me out. I realized that watching murder/mystery shows right before bed is not advised because I tend to be spooked really easily or I get nightmares. Yes, I had a nightmare last night. It wasn't about getting murdered or any mystery, but it was about me in clinic. I think the stress of clinic has finally gotten to me. I'm having nightmares about it. I think I was just really busy or something, but it was scary to me because I'm deathly afraid of falling behind and having patients complain about how long they had to wait to be seen.

 

I've decided that I can never be a cop, a private investigator, a spy, a criminal, or any type of job that requires being awake at night, stalking people or potentially killing or seeing a dead person. I am just not brave enough for that. I get scared when my neighbors slam the door too hard. I freak out and almost pee in my pants because I think someone broke into my apartment and is going to kill me. Every night I go to bed thinking someone is hiding somewhere in my apartment and is waiting for me to fall sleep before they slaughter me. I don't know why I didn't really get that scared when I was living in my studio before. But suddenly now, living in the middle of nowhere with two bedrooms and spotty cell phone reception is horrifying for me. HORRIFYING. *shivers*

 

So yesterday when I met my co-worker's son and daugheter in law they were telling me about this science channel show that tries to explain the unexplanable things that happen in the world. It was SCARY! He told me about this case where this airplane and the pilot disapppeared and right before he disappeared, he radioed into some tower telling those guys that he thinks he's being followed by a UFO. Then they picked up some weird UFO-like object on the radar but it flew in weird patterns and then suddenly, it was gone, it vanished and so did the pilot + the plane! So scary! And there were more stories but that one stuck out the most and was the most frightening! So on top of criminals and ghosts, I have to worry about UFO's coming to get me now. Perfect, just perfect! Ugh.

 

This is probably why I wake up really tired every morning. I always wake up a few times in the middle of the night and I don't feel like I have a restful sleep. I'm probably subconsciously too worried about something super natural coming to get me and not going into my deep REM sleep. *shakes head in shame*