Gloomy Day

Gloomy day today. It looks like it's going to rain, feels really muggy and warm too. The weather is so weird here. One day it's all rainbows and sunshine, then lightening and thunder the next day. I'd like to think the weather reflects my mood, but not here. When it's all sunshine, which is pretty much everyday, I'm pretty sad and lonely here. But today, when it's all gloomy, I feel all happy. I think a large part of it comes from the fact that I had amazingly awesome patients today that followed directions perfectly, had great hearing, were nice people and had nothing wrong with them. That makes an easy day. I could actually carry on a conversation with them because they can hear me first of all and because I didn't have to channel all my brain cells into thinking about how to manage and treat them. If only everyday were like this....too early to start dreaming huh? *sighs

I really wanted to share this with you, I can't believe I forgot! So my Aunt supposedly went back to China and found one of those "fortune tellers" that connect with the spirits to reveal your future to you. You know how sometimes you watch those Chinese movies and there's someone that pats their hands on the table and convulses like they are having a seizure but they are really being taken over by "spirits" and then they tell you frightening things about yourself you didn't even know and then more stuff about your future that's going to haunt you until you make them happen? Yeah, those fortune tellers. So my Aunt asked about my cousin's love life and it was so funny. She basically insulted my cousin saying that it's good she's not married yet. She has this life where she's meant to either marry really late or get a million divorces. If she had married young, she would have been divorced 5 times over by now. I can actually see that. My cousin doesn't have the best temper and she's very quick to turn on you. Hence, how she turned on our family and still holds a grudge against us. She only talks to me very unwillingly (because I talk to her) and won't even acknowledge my mom's presence. Anyhow, when my Aunt shared this with my mom, my mom decides she wants to do the same thing for me! She asks my Hong Kong Aunt to go do it and now things are in the works. She's going to ask about my love life. My mom says that if they predict good things with this relationship that I'm in right now, then she's going to rush me into marriage. (surprise!) But if the fortune teller predicts bad things about this relationship then she's going to make me break up with my boyfriend. So much is dependent on this fortune teller...makes me kinda worried. I have to say, I'm interested in what the fortune teller is going to say, but I don't know how much of it I want to believe.

I've done this fortune teller thing before. When I studied abroad in Hong Kong and for the most part, it was SO ACCURATE! It told me NOT to start a relationship with anyone that year because it's not a good year. And I didn't listen, and I got burned. BURNED! And it's a double burn too because I was already warned and I still did it! Well, anyways, stayed tuned for the results!

Is it sad that I'm more excited about spending a night alone and watching TV shows rather than going out and hanging out with friends? I seriously dread going out with friends a lot. I hate getting ready, I hate putting in an effort to look "nice", I hate driving out there, I hate always being the first one to get there and waiting for everyone to show up...the whole thing! But when everyone does show up and we all eat, drink, chat and be merry, it's really fun. I like catching up with everyone and I really like the eating part...haha. And then the whole drive home I'm happy. Tired...but happy. And then I get home and I am even more happy that I'm at home. See, total home body! So I'm always happy that I did decide to go out and see people, but I feel like I get more joy from sitting at home and lounging around watching TV. Is that sad? I don't know. Seems kinda a pathetic way to waste away a lifetime. But that's what I like? I'm going to try to change and go out more, but that also seems like an empty promise. Haha. Sometimes, people just don't change, like me. LoL.

So my mom's friend's son finally revealed to me through text that his mom has cancer. Well, he didn't straight up say it, but he just said that she is going through chemo. Which I guess implies that she has cancer. I'm always afraid to text him for my mom because I'm afraid I'm going to get THE TEXT. You know, the text that says my mom's friend has passed away or something terrible like that. We are concerned about her and we want to show we care, but I don't want to be too big of a bother and pester them too much. So I text him maybe every 2 weeks or so. Is that too long of an interval? Too short?

So something that I realized is that I want to read now. When I was home this weekend, I didn't bring any books back with me to read, so I couldn't read before bed, like I do now. It was funny because I found myself actually missing it. I really wanted a book to read before bedtime. So I went digging through our book shelves for something to read. Didn't matter if I read it before or if I haven't. I found Freakonomics. Weird, didn't even know we had that book. Didn't like it though, it's not fiction and doesn't involve a really interesting story line with cool characters. I found The Odyssey. I bought it back in college when I had to read it for humanities. I have notes written all over the margins. Didn't like it...too deep and philosophical for me. I gave up after that. I know it seems like a pathetic attempt but come on, it's ME. Attempting to seek a book to read at all is freaking amazing for my standards! Just thought you'd like to know that I enjoy reading a little more now. I'm slowly becoming you!! haha.

Ok, going to enjoy some TV time now :) Yes!!!