Monday's

Another Monday.

Wasn't too bad today. I was only overbooked once. I did have a few cases that made me scratch my head (literally and figuratively). In particular, it was this one case that had a million things going on. I'm terrible at cases that have a million things going on. I can at best address maybe one or two disease/complaints, but when there's a ton of complaints and a million findings, I just get lost. At the end of the day, I had to consult with someone, so I just sent the chart off to my boss and had to her take a look at it and give me some advice. I usually do this when I feel VERY VERY lost and need guidance. She's very nice about helping me out and giving me good feedback. I can't wait until I get the chart back and read her comments. Hopefully my chart isn't sprinkled with tons of mistakes.

Sometimes I look back at charts I've written and I just cringe at how poorly they are written. There are missing findings, missing critical details, spelling errors, etc etc. I re-read this chart I wrote a few days ago and it said "discussed with patient that there might be a bit of a weight". OMG, I was mortified!!!!
O_O That spelling error is just GLARING at me!! I was and STILL AM so embarrassed!!! I immediately wrote an additional note to retract my mistake "My apologies, I meant "wait" instead of "weight" Does this retraction make me look even dumber?? I don't know...I just hope no one ever reads this note!

Makes me think about how many other spelling and grammar errors and missing details I have on my other charts. Aiya!!

Even when I re-read my own blog entries or yelp entries I find a TON of errors. I think I know what my problem is. I tend to think faster than I can type and by the time I get to the end of a sentence, my brain is already thinking of something else and my fingers are typing as fast as they can to keep up but there's a disconnect between what is coming out of my brain and what is translated to my fingers. That's one theory. My other theory is that I'm not really paying attention when I type, I'm only half there because my mind ALWAYS wanders. I swear I have ADHD (self diagnosed) and since I'm only using half my brain's capacity, it's easy for spelling and grammar errors to just slip by. That's all the theories I have right now...I would say that the solution to all my problems is that I should just proofread all my stuff, but I SWEAR I re-read my charts 5 times over before I sign them and STILL...MISTAKES EVERYWHERE!!!

Since I woke up at 4:30am yesterday, last night, I decided I should go to bed at 7pm. It seemed like a really good idea until my mom calls me 3 billion times around 11pm. So because of daylight savings, it's really only 10pm in California, but 11pm here for me. So I'm super pissed off because I hate it when people wake me up. Someone better be dying if it's important enough to wake me up. That's pretty much my policy. So I answer the phone and my mom just tells me that she's calling for no reason, just wanted to talk to me and see how I was doing. O_O I hang up on her and try to go back to sleep. NO DICE. So...it's 11pm, I'm hungry and I'm wide awake. Ugh.

I start reading, because that always tends to make me sleepier, and it doesn't help! So I've finished like 2 chapters and it's like 11:30pm and I'm still hungry and very wide awake. So I just turn off the lights and TRY to go to sleep. I somehow managed to fall asleep, thanks goodness! But I wake up at 5am!!! Ugh. So I try to go back to sleep again, but no luck. So I'm rolling around in bed, just angry at my mom. I thankfully fell back asleep and woke again at 6am...or maybe I didn't sleep at all and I thought I did? I don't know, I just rolled out of bed because it seemed useless trying to go back to bed when my alarm was going to sound in 30mins anyway. So I had a ton of time to get ready this morning.

When I was getting ready...because my mind always wanders, I thought about how sad it would be if something happened to my mom and that was the last thing I did/said to her. I was so mean and so rude. I felt really bad. All this guilt. She gave birth to me and this is how I treat her? Gosh darn my conscious, this ALWAYS happens to me! I always feel bad after I'm mean to a family member, especially if it's my mom or dad. I'm probably going to call her soon and apologize for my behavior last night. I was so sleepy I'm not even sure what I said or did, but I'm pretty sure it was mean. It'd probably need some censoring if there were a child listening in on the conversation that's age 5 or younger. Ok, will add to "to do list". Call mom and apologize.

The other night I completely forgot to lock my front door! Yes! I was terrified when I woke up the next morning and realized that! Chills running down my spine! I went through every room and closet in the house making sure no one sneaked into my apartment and was hiding there waiting to kill me in my sleep. I guess if they really sneaked in that night and wanted to kill me in my sleep, they would have done it already, but STILL!! Very SCARY!! I have to double...no TRIPLE check my doors now! Make sure I'm locked up and SAFE!

I actually tried to cook today. I say that very loosely. I just had some left over celery I used for the chicken tortilla soup and I just stir fried it with some eggs. I'm pretty sure the eggs are expired. They have been in my fridge for a long time. That, and the carton is dated "expiration: 10/30/13". I guess a few days after the expiration date is still ok right? OMG, who am I? I sound like YOU! "It's ok to leave food out refrigerated". OMG, no it's not! Didn't you learn with your chocolate soymilk?? Haha. Every time I think about that story it still cracks me up. Haha.

Ok, it's like way past 7pm, I should go to bed now. Haha...jk....sorta...ZzZzZzZz.......