Sleepy Weekend

It's Monday, start of another work week.

I've been sleeping a ton this weekend since I've been on Benadryl. I wasn't getting any better, so I doubled my dosage, from one pill to two. I don't know if it's just all psychological but I didn't actually feel that sleepy but I was convincing myself that I'm sleeping so I ended up napping the whole day yesterday and then going to bed at like 8pm last night. It's pretty amazing how much I slept. You would think the more sleep you get, the more well rested you are, but there are studies that say you are actually MORE tired if you over sleep. I think if you sleep more than 10hrs or something then you actually get EVEN more TIRED. I only woke up for meals yesterday. I'd eat for an hour or two and then sleep again. I felt like a fat lazy baby. But it was nice to just lounge around and not have anyone bother me. When I say bother me, I'm referring to my family, bothering me about getting married and etc etc. And it was nice I didn't have any errands to run, I did them all Saturday :)

My eye is no longer swollen shut, which is good, because it would have been very embarrassing to give exams with one eye patched, looking like a pirate. The swelling in my hand also went down, my hand looked like "pig's feet" yesterday. It was really bad. And my foot never swelled that much but it was VERY itchy, but that's even died down, so all in all, I think those itchy patches are finally starting to get better. And it only took a whole weekend of overdosing Benadryl, constant sleeping and a lot of steroid ointment to get me back to feeling/looking semi-normal.

I feel pretty good about today because I have my same schedule back! Nine patients today! That's all! I've been seeing 11-12 patients each day for the past two or more weeks! At first I really thought it was because the rush of all the winter visitors here, but then I realized I think it's because I'm making up for the two days I'm going to take off in March to visit my BF. Every time I take days off, I have to cancel those patients for those days. So for example, if there were 10 patients scheduled on a day I want to take off, I have to somehow fit those patients back into my schedule elsewhere. So I've been killing myself lately, overbooking my schedule, trying to see all these patients that were suppose to be seen from those two days in March.

I can't wait until my students come in May! Everyone is telling me to lower my expectations because depending on your luck of the draw, sometimes you can get really bad students that are SLOW and everything they do is WRONG and it might cause even more stress and back up the clinic even more! And when the students come, I'm going to have focus more on didactics. So that's just one more thing I have to focus on and add to my already growing list of things I have to do for my job. But at least, I won't have to constantly be seeing patients when the students come. At least, I'll have some time to myself to focus on admin things while the students are with the patients.

Thank you for comforting me and telling me not to feel guilty. I can't believe in a time like this, you have to comfort me. It should really be the other way around. That's how I feel like our relationship is. You are always so strong and you always help me feel better even though in this case, I should really be helping you feel better. You really are amazing.

I can understand what you mean about being scared to go home and not having 24hr care anymore. I know we have talked about it before, where we both doesn't really like change. It's hard to get used to change. You've been in that room for such a long time and got used to that schedule and standard of care, and now you are going home and you don't know what to expect at home. You don't know whose going to be around to help you and it's hard. I completely understand. It's like rocking the boat when you were steadily gliding down stream already. But with everything in life, it's just hard in the beginning. Once you get into a groove of things, it'll be like routine again. And I bet you are going to be way more comfortable at home anyways. The comforts of home will always be better than whatever the hospital can provide. You will be in your own clothes, your own bed, your own sheets, your own room. It's all yours. I'm sure with time, you'll re-adjust to being back at home and your anxiety about leaving the hospital will be eased.

I finally finished reading Wildwood, book 2. It was very uneventful, just like Lord of the Rings, 2nd movie, just a bridge between the first and second movies. OMG, I have a feeling I've blogged about this already. Well, anyway, I started to read another book. The Solitude of Prime Numbers? Wait, let me google it and see if I can find the actual title. Oh wait, that is the actual name. Sweet, I got it right. So yeah, it's pretty good so far. If I didn't drug overdose on Benadryl, I probably could have stayed awake long enough to read more of it. I'll let you know how it goes. It's been an interesting few first chapters so far. Oh! My BF bought the last Wildwood book!! And it's autographed! Can't wait to finish this series! :)  Look at me...I'm all excited about reading...wow, I have changed.... *proud of myself   I'm reading so much that I don't even keep track of how many books I read each year anymore. Which, before, if you remember, it's like an average of 1 book a year. So meaning some years I'd read like NO  BOOKs lol.  Well to be far to myself, it was probably like I was reading a book but I just didn't to finish it, even though, it's been a whole year. LoL.

I used to think that I'm a really fast typer, but then everyone else caught up with me and I'm all slow now. I think I was pretty fast at one point in my life, but now that everyone's all into computers and everything and pretty much everyone has to type, it's kind of the normal to be a fast typer now. And as a result, because I can't spell very well, I always stumble on words and therefore, it slows down my typing. Just a random thing I've noticed, since it seems like it always takes me FOREVER to blog and it's always sprinkled with typos.

I didn't know what to get my BF this Vday, it's going to be the first Vday we spend together as a real couple! I found a really cute Dora Vday card, that I'm pretty sure is for little kids, because it comes with stickers, but I'm sending him that. LoL. He likes Dora and the stickers are cute. I wonder if he'll actually use them on anything...lol. Probably not. Or maybe...sometimes he can be surprising. LoL. So I found this really funny picture online where there is this girl saying something to her bf "You don't have to get me anything for Valentine's Day" and then the next picture is some Star Wars character saying "It's a TRAP!" It's so funny! So I keep telling my BF he doesn't have to get me anything and now he doesn't believe me and keeps thinking it's a trap lol. I just told him on gchat recently "You don't have to get me anything, it's seriously NOT a TRAP!" and he responded with "No, it's just a double trap!"  Who knew a funny picture would make him so paranoid. LoL.

I'm really looking forward to this three day weekend. I know it's probably not the best way to start the week, by looking forward to a long weekend, but I think it's the only thing getting me by right now. I'm getting so burned out giving so many exams. This weekend will be a nice break! :)